Wow the diaz family had quite the evening last night and morning today!!
Last night andrea's asthma was pretty bad... we packed up and headed for the hospital ... luckily the attack finally passed so we were able to return home but between andrea and gustavo who is also sick it made for a pretty miserable night.
This morning i went to the dr with andrea and gustavo went to his doc...andrea has another ear infection ... and her asthma... doc said that a lot of his patients are in the hospital due to the asthma this week... he also went on to say that if we're giving her meds and the attacks aren't passing then we have no choice but to head to the er.... not good. he put her on antibiotics for her ear infection... and refered gustavo to an allergist at cleveland clinic lol...he also gave me a fatherly lecture about not letting myself get to run down bc if i go down my whole family is going to suffer lol!! he asked me if i'm eating well and told me i need to start putting on weight and eating lentils LMAO!!! this guys a trip!!!
Meanwhile every time little one gets sick i get it and gustavo gets it ughhh its rough but what can you do besides keep pushing though i suppose...
Today andrea is with my sister bc i did not feel comfortable taking her to school so at least i have peace of mind for the day and can concentrate on what i need to do at work... i'm starting to believe daycare is the devil lol!!!
anyway i'll be working straight through the weekend which is great money wise but sucky as far as timing goes...being that we're all sick and poor gustavo is going to have to be with andrea all weekend while trying to recooperate himself... we shall see how this goes...prayer is needed
Friday, October 1, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Today's Update
Well Andrea went to see dr m yesterday with Gustavo and the verdict is:
She has a mix of asthma and a cold right now.. unfortunately children with asthma are a lot more prone to getting sick since the respirtory system is already weak. So she will be going back to see him tomorrow to make sure she's getting better and if shes not then he's going to prescribe an antibiotic so we aren't stuck over the weekend having to end up in the hospital :(
He also went on to tell my husband that we "need to accept the fact that she's just not ready for school yet" that was interesting to hear... makes me feel pretty helpless.
He also gave us a blood panel form to test her for common allergies to things like dairy wheat eggs fish nuts etc...
originally he told us that he doesnt advise that bloodwork until the child is closer to the age of two but being that andrea is sick more than she is well he advised to get it as soon as possible.
Today i sent her to school but picked her up around 12:30 when i picked her up i asked her teacher how she was feeling and she told me she had been coughing... at that point i went to the director and asked if she had been nebulized today since her teacher told me she was coughing... the directors eyes widened and told me that she hadn't nebulized her but she had come in late this morning and she would find out if the assistant director had.... entirely out of patience by this point i pretty bluntly said "so basically she had an asthma attack and wasn't nebulized... i dont know what else to do for you people i explain to all the teachers each day how important this is and they simply are ignoring me"... the director told me that she would work hard to double and triple check on andrea throughout the day ... but its more than that... at this point how am i supposed to know that shes getting the care that she needs... i talk to the teachers and the director on a daily basis letting them know the symptoms and what to be on the look out for... seriously this is rediculous... further more i was calling each day this week to check on her and the director told me she was fine... today i didn't call but come to find out i probably should have.... ughhhhh
im tired...
She has a mix of asthma and a cold right now.. unfortunately children with asthma are a lot more prone to getting sick since the respirtory system is already weak. So she will be going back to see him tomorrow to make sure she's getting better and if shes not then he's going to prescribe an antibiotic so we aren't stuck over the weekend having to end up in the hospital :(
He also went on to tell my husband that we "need to accept the fact that she's just not ready for school yet" that was interesting to hear... makes me feel pretty helpless.
He also gave us a blood panel form to test her for common allergies to things like dairy wheat eggs fish nuts etc...
originally he told us that he doesnt advise that bloodwork until the child is closer to the age of two but being that andrea is sick more than she is well he advised to get it as soon as possible.
Today i sent her to school but picked her up around 12:30 when i picked her up i asked her teacher how she was feeling and she told me she had been coughing... at that point i went to the director and asked if she had been nebulized today since her teacher told me she was coughing... the directors eyes widened and told me that she hadn't nebulized her but she had come in late this morning and she would find out if the assistant director had.... entirely out of patience by this point i pretty bluntly said "so basically she had an asthma attack and wasn't nebulized... i dont know what else to do for you people i explain to all the teachers each day how important this is and they simply are ignoring me"... the director told me that she would work hard to double and triple check on andrea throughout the day ... but its more than that... at this point how am i supposed to know that shes getting the care that she needs... i talk to the teachers and the director on a daily basis letting them know the symptoms and what to be on the look out for... seriously this is rediculous... further more i was calling each day this week to check on her and the director told me she was fine... today i didn't call but come to find out i probably should have.... ughhhhh
im tired...
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
sick again
Yesterday i got a call from andrea's daycare around 3:30... i had to go pick up my feverish little one...apparently shes pretty congested and is fighting a cold...whats new!
At the moment shes sleeping next to me at the office..her dad should be here within the hour to pick her up... we're trying the whole split day thing to see if we can balance things that way lol!! i'm hoping it works and shes better soon considering i'm going to have to work straight through the weekend this weekend and that is always hard on all three of us!! sometimes its hard to find time for life while you're living it as screwed up as that sounds.
anyway shes definitely been worse off as far as the cold goes and of course its that time of year where everyones fighting it but a cold is a cold and a fever is a fever and daycare has no tolerance for either lol. She had a dr appt tomorrow afternoon anyway to follow up on her previous ear infections over the last two weeks but being that shes sick now anyway gustavo is just going to take her in today and kill two birds with one stone.
although i have to be honest... i know that her pedi is going to put her back on antibiotics to fight whatever this is and i cant help but be a little on edge about that being that shes pretty much been on antibiotics for the past month.... is that doing anything to her immune system? blahhh if i could shut my brain off just for a little while i think it would be helpful.
anyway i'm definitely hoping that this cold passes with little damage lol
At the moment shes sleeping next to me at the office..her dad should be here within the hour to pick her up... we're trying the whole split day thing to see if we can balance things that way lol!! i'm hoping it works and shes better soon considering i'm going to have to work straight through the weekend this weekend and that is always hard on all three of us!! sometimes its hard to find time for life while you're living it as screwed up as that sounds.
anyway shes definitely been worse off as far as the cold goes and of course its that time of year where everyones fighting it but a cold is a cold and a fever is a fever and daycare has no tolerance for either lol. She had a dr appt tomorrow afternoon anyway to follow up on her previous ear infections over the last two weeks but being that shes sick now anyway gustavo is just going to take her in today and kill two birds with one stone.
although i have to be honest... i know that her pedi is going to put her back on antibiotics to fight whatever this is and i cant help but be a little on edge about that being that shes pretty much been on antibiotics for the past month.... is that doing anything to her immune system? blahhh if i could shut my brain off just for a little while i think it would be helpful.
anyway i'm definitely hoping that this cold passes with little damage lol
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
andrea!
As i stated in my previous post about vacation the week before we were set to leave she got pink eye in both eyes and an ear infection. i got pink eye and a sinus infection lol by the time we came back from vacation her pink eye had come back and her ear infection jumped to the opposite ear.. and gustavo had strep throat which turned into a sinus infection.. as well as pink eye... it was rough to say the least... we're all healing now and probably about 90% back to normal... last night andrea had a fever which seemed to have subsided by this morning so i sent her to school. Also this past weekend was pretty rough for her asthma. Pollen count is on the higher side so this is probably going to be a rough breathing week for her.
Being that gustavo or myself have never sufferd from asthma this is all kind of weird and unexpected... (kids of asthmatic parents are 6 times more likely to develop asthma) its like she just became asthmatic from the clear blue sky... and its hard to see her struggle and not be able to do anything about it. As a parent i feel out of control and frustrated. It's hard. These days so many parents struggle with one thing or another and the lucky ones who dont well i'm starting to think they're the minority...all in all theres basically nothing i can do but hope that she grows out of it and pray for her to be able to once again breathe easy.
Other than that i have her on vitamin supplements to boost her immune system and for her asthma.. i try to get her to drink tea that reduces the effects of it as well... and i try has hard as i can to stay on top of the house cleaning to eliminate anything that could complicate her symptoms since pretty much everything you can think of is a trigger for asthma.
She is also being monitored on a monthly basis for he weight by her pedi... at 14 months andrea is only weighing 18.1 ... not good.... mealtimes are stressful because its not like she just doesn't want to eat... she doesn't want to eat and i have the pressure of knowing that she's underweight all at the same time... hubby doesn't stress over her weight or what she eats anymore but i cant help it. Its been tough... being that my in laws dont live here and my parents are expecting ... basically its just us.. and thats ok but man when it rains it poors and sometimes all you want is that extra support.
anyway thats the update on my baby girl... other than that shes meeting all of her milestones... shes a walker and almost runner lol and she's becoming very verbal which is great!
Being that gustavo or myself have never sufferd from asthma this is all kind of weird and unexpected... (kids of asthmatic parents are 6 times more likely to develop asthma) its like she just became asthmatic from the clear blue sky... and its hard to see her struggle and not be able to do anything about it. As a parent i feel out of control and frustrated. It's hard. These days so many parents struggle with one thing or another and the lucky ones who dont well i'm starting to think they're the minority...all in all theres basically nothing i can do but hope that she grows out of it and pray for her to be able to once again breathe easy.
Other than that i have her on vitamin supplements to boost her immune system and for her asthma.. i try to get her to drink tea that reduces the effects of it as well... and i try has hard as i can to stay on top of the house cleaning to eliminate anything that could complicate her symptoms since pretty much everything you can think of is a trigger for asthma.
She is also being monitored on a monthly basis for he weight by her pedi... at 14 months andrea is only weighing 18.1 ... not good.... mealtimes are stressful because its not like she just doesn't want to eat... she doesn't want to eat and i have the pressure of knowing that she's underweight all at the same time... hubby doesn't stress over her weight or what she eats anymore but i cant help it. Its been tough... being that my in laws dont live here and my parents are expecting ... basically its just us.. and thats ok but man when it rains it poors and sometimes all you want is that extra support.
anyway thats the update on my baby girl... other than that shes meeting all of her milestones... shes a walker and almost runner lol and she's becoming very verbal which is great!
Diaz Family Vacation
For our first family vacation we decided to keep things close to home and went to visit mickey.
The trip was awesome... of course it was preceded by andrea having pink eye in both eyes and an ear infection the week before. so i was only able to work monday and tuesday... then i was home with her the rest of the week and went into the office at night to catch up on my work since were were going on vacation the following week. By the weekend i had pink eye and a sinus infection.. GREAT!!! but since her symptoms had cleared up we decided to make a go for vacation...
We stayed at a disney resort called the Port Orleans French Quarter. Basically new orleans themed it was beautiful... i had never stayed at a disney resort before and i would definitely recommend it if you're going to orlando for vacation.. there was plenty to do at the resort for the days we just wanted to relax and take it easy. They had a ferry that takes you to downtown disney and back... and shuttles to the parks... they also had a horse and carriage ride that we took our last night there it was so awesome!!
We went to the magic kingdom and andrea had a blast. She loved Dumbo and the show at cinderellas castle. all in all it was a great trip. Gustavo wasn't totally sold on the idea of spending our vacation in orlando but after such a great experience he wants to go back every year lol!! i dont know about that but we'll definitely be back.
The trip was awesome... of course it was preceded by andrea having pink eye in both eyes and an ear infection the week before. so i was only able to work monday and tuesday... then i was home with her the rest of the week and went into the office at night to catch up on my work since were were going on vacation the following week. By the weekend i had pink eye and a sinus infection.. GREAT!!! but since her symptoms had cleared up we decided to make a go for vacation...
We stayed at a disney resort called the Port Orleans French Quarter. Basically new orleans themed it was beautiful... i had never stayed at a disney resort before and i would definitely recommend it if you're going to orlando for vacation.. there was plenty to do at the resort for the days we just wanted to relax and take it easy. They had a ferry that takes you to downtown disney and back... and shuttles to the parks... they also had a horse and carriage ride that we took our last night there it was so awesome!!
We went to the magic kingdom and andrea had a blast. She loved Dumbo and the show at cinderellas castle. all in all it was a great trip. Gustavo wasn't totally sold on the idea of spending our vacation in orlando but after such a great experience he wants to go back every year lol!! i dont know about that but we'll definitely be back.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Asthma Asthma and more Asthma!!
Andrea was diagnosed with asthma about 3 months ago.. however she takes singulair each night to curb the episodes and for the past month it's worked like a charm... i really haven't had to nebulize her... until this weekend.. when she woke up around 3 am sunday morning with an asthma attack... then had another again around 9:30pm ... then 2:30am and of course around 8am which brings us to monday :( i took her to the pedi just to make sure i wasn't nebulizing her for asthma when that wasn't really the case.. he confirmed that they were just back to back flare ups.
Wow i'm completely exhausted... i had to of course explain to her teachers and her director at school what an asthma attack sounds like and what her symptoms are so they know whats going on... it just really makes me sad that my little girl has to struggle with this. Just the thought that she spends 8 hours a day at school without me there and could possibly have these attacks and if not paid close attention to will go untreated makes me lose sleep and want to throw up all at the same time... its really unnerving . i'm kind of at a loss for words right now. basically she just coughs and coughs and cant seem to get enough releif until nebulized.. she gets two different meds through the nebulizer then if she still cant pass the attack she gets one oral med. plus the singulair that is given every night. my house looks like the pill box :(
Wow i'm completely exhausted... i had to of course explain to her teachers and her director at school what an asthma attack sounds like and what her symptoms are so they know whats going on... it just really makes me sad that my little girl has to struggle with this. Just the thought that she spends 8 hours a day at school without me there and could possibly have these attacks and if not paid close attention to will go untreated makes me lose sleep and want to throw up all at the same time... its really unnerving . i'm kind of at a loss for words right now. basically she just coughs and coughs and cant seem to get enough releif until nebulized.. she gets two different meds through the nebulizer then if she still cant pass the attack she gets one oral med. plus the singulair that is given every night. my house looks like the pill box :(
Friday, August 27, 2010
Under Stimulated
Andrea has been in day care since she was 8 months old. Now at 13 months old she is at a daycare with the "big kids" aka 1 year olds ;) her daycare is equipped with a webcam so i can monitor her from work. I've noticed that andrea probably spends a total of 1/4 of her day playing independently. If the kids are doing centers with the teacher you will see all of the children gathered playing and participating in the center activities. Then you will see andrea on the opposite side of the classroom playing with a toy by herself.
i think for the most part her teachers try to redirect her to the center activities they'll hold her or sit her on their lap but that doesn't always happen. Therefore shes spending a good chunk of her time by herself. When she started in this classroom i figured it was just due to the change or possibly because the size difference between andrea and her class mates... however now a month into it i haven't really seen a change.
.At Home.
Andrea is stuck to gustavo and i like glue at home... independent play doesn't exist which is so odd considering i know she does it at school. Even if i put on mickey or dora or any of the other popular childrens cartoons she has interest in the intro and end songs but thats about it. and this is not a new development. Shes been this way probably since 6 months of age. I tried baby genius and all of a sudden she sits there sucking her thumb dazed by this baby show. >>ok this is new<<
When she sees her cousin she plays with her without a problem.
But for about 7 months now i've been saying to myself.. ok it seems like she's never stimulated enough... and now after observing her at school i can't help but wonder if she really is under stimulated?
I try to get a hold of this by trying to work one on one with her but i haven't been able to find something that shes interested enough in. I try flash cards... she eats them... puzzles? she throws the pieces across the room... i've tried shape sorters and she takes the lid off ... none of these things seem to work.
Her tantrums have gotten worse over the past month and i'm wondering if that could be attributed to this possibility of under stimulation.
I'm just unsure of what's going on... i dont think anything is necessarily wrong i just dont want her slipping through the cracks either... ie: if she needs to be challenged i want to meet her needs.
i think for the most part her teachers try to redirect her to the center activities they'll hold her or sit her on their lap but that doesn't always happen. Therefore shes spending a good chunk of her time by herself. When she started in this classroom i figured it was just due to the change or possibly because the size difference between andrea and her class mates... however now a month into it i haven't really seen a change.
.At Home.
Andrea is stuck to gustavo and i like glue at home... independent play doesn't exist which is so odd considering i know she does it at school. Even if i put on mickey or dora or any of the other popular childrens cartoons she has interest in the intro and end songs but thats about it. and this is not a new development. Shes been this way probably since 6 months of age. I tried baby genius and all of a sudden she sits there sucking her thumb dazed by this baby show. >>ok this is new<<
When she sees her cousin she plays with her without a problem.
But for about 7 months now i've been saying to myself.. ok it seems like she's never stimulated enough... and now after observing her at school i can't help but wonder if she really is under stimulated?
I try to get a hold of this by trying to work one on one with her but i haven't been able to find something that shes interested enough in. I try flash cards... she eats them... puzzles? she throws the pieces across the room... i've tried shape sorters and she takes the lid off ... none of these things seem to work.
Her tantrums have gotten worse over the past month and i'm wondering if that could be attributed to this possibility of under stimulation.
I'm just unsure of what's going on... i dont think anything is necessarily wrong i just dont want her slipping through the cracks either... ie: if she needs to be challenged i want to meet her needs.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Mom Thoughts
Since i've been old enough to understand i've wanted to do something amazing... i had an intense fear of failure... of amounting to nothing... of not being somebody... now that never really correlated to having money or being a millionaire ... i just wanted to be successful... i wanted to help people... i wanted others who came in contact with me to be able to say that i'm a good person and i've gone out of my way to help or touch them in one way or another...
When i had my daughter i felt that had been accomplished... i felt that i had reached that something amazing... i was a mommy... i had a part in creating life....there was another person who was part of this world because of me because of my role.. and i would continue to help her get to that point where she would become something amazing.
i wonder sometimes if the right place for me is working or if i should be home with her no matter what the sacrifice financially... i mean i send her to daycare everyday... and she learns, interacts with other children, and clearly thrives... they teach her how to be a little person...and each year that gets built upon and she grows more and more ... but i wonder about my role in all of that.. i mean when it comes down to it i spend an hour with her in the morning and 4 hours before bed in the evenings...5 days a week... then of course we're weekend warriors... where we live for family time on the weekends...but is she really thriving or would she benefit on a greater level if i were home with her interacting 24/7...
on the flip side:
i enjoy working... i enjoy adult interaction ... i enjoy being good at something other than being a wife and mommy... selfish?
is this alawys going to be how it is???
this ugly inner struggle between one or the other... which is best..what makes me a better or worse mother...
but what if i were able to stay home with her all day ? would i burn out... would i desperately miss my time at work being a productive member of the working population? What about that inner struggle?
When i had my daughter i felt that had been accomplished... i felt that i had reached that something amazing... i was a mommy... i had a part in creating life....there was another person who was part of this world because of me because of my role.. and i would continue to help her get to that point where she would become something amazing.
i wonder sometimes if the right place for me is working or if i should be home with her no matter what the sacrifice financially... i mean i send her to daycare everyday... and she learns, interacts with other children, and clearly thrives... they teach her how to be a little person...and each year that gets built upon and she grows more and more ... but i wonder about my role in all of that.. i mean when it comes down to it i spend an hour with her in the morning and 4 hours before bed in the evenings...5 days a week... then of course we're weekend warriors... where we live for family time on the weekends...but is she really thriving or would she benefit on a greater level if i were home with her interacting 24/7...
on the flip side:
i enjoy working... i enjoy adult interaction ... i enjoy being good at something other than being a wife and mommy... selfish?
is this alawys going to be how it is???
this ugly inner struggle between one or the other... which is best..what makes me a better or worse mother...
but what if i were able to stay home with her all day ? would i burn out... would i desperately miss my time at work being a productive member of the working population? What about that inner struggle?
Monday, August 23, 2010
andrea is 13 months old!!!
Andrea turned 13 months old yesterday.
I think she's doing pretty well for a little 13 month old.
Milestones:
walking (although she prefers to hold a hand wherever shes going she does it pretty consistently on her own as well), pointing, she says mom, daddy, shakes her head no when she doesn't want something, when we count she knows that three comes after 2 and says teeeee LOL ITS ADORABLE!!! knows what shhhh means and will tell you on command lol, she blows kisses and gives kisses on command, hugs, waves byebye, shes ok with playing independently but its really not her favorite thing to do lately she'd rather be stuck to my leg, she's also trying to feed herself with utensils, i dont know if tantrums are a milestone or not lol but she has definitely entered into that phase!! thats all that comes to mind these days i'm sure theres so much that i'm leaving out but those are the main things.
Andrea is on regular "people food" lol usually i give her whatever we eat i just try to make things a little healthier and kid friendly for her sake. she loves pb&j sammies which i introduced to her about two weeks ago.. those and mac and cheese are a big hit with her.
Since she turned 1 she has become crazy in love with her daddy. Which is kind of difficult for me at times because i miss the way she used to be obsessed with me.. but i love seeing the dynamic between her and gustavo... it reminds me of my relationship with my dad... and i love it... she also loves her grandfather and happens to be crazy over him as well.. its cute!!
co sleeping has really plateaued for us... its gotten sooooo bad... i cant even describe how miserable nights can be sometimes... basically fitting my ever so restless toddler in our queen sized bed plus mommy and daddy just isn't cute anymore lol... on a nightly basis i get kicked in the face, head butted, and pretty much pushed off the bed.. i dont even know what its like to snuggle with my husband anymore lol....trying to put her in the crib is extremely hard... she screams until she throws up... if i wait until she falls asleep and then put her in she either wakes up immediately or she wakes up 3 hours later!! its just really bad... even the simple task of getting her to sleep is difficult as she bops around the bed 50 times and screams when we lay her down to sleep.. meanwhile this is usually after 4 hours of play time, and a warm bath with lavendar soap, a warm bottle, NOTHING works... ugh its extremely frustrating.
other than that i would say we have a normal 13 month old who loves to play and watch mickey mouse lol... i love her so much and wouldn't change anything about her... it's all part of the process. happy 13 months little minnow mommy loves you <3
I think she's doing pretty well for a little 13 month old.
Milestones:
walking (although she prefers to hold a hand wherever shes going she does it pretty consistently on her own as well), pointing, she says mom, daddy, shakes her head no when she doesn't want something, when we count she knows that three comes after 2 and says teeeee LOL ITS ADORABLE!!! knows what shhhh means and will tell you on command lol, she blows kisses and gives kisses on command, hugs, waves byebye, shes ok with playing independently but its really not her favorite thing to do lately she'd rather be stuck to my leg, she's also trying to feed herself with utensils, i dont know if tantrums are a milestone or not lol but she has definitely entered into that phase!! thats all that comes to mind these days i'm sure theres so much that i'm leaving out but those are the main things.
Andrea is on regular "people food" lol usually i give her whatever we eat i just try to make things a little healthier and kid friendly for her sake. she loves pb&j sammies which i introduced to her about two weeks ago.. those and mac and cheese are a big hit with her.
Since she turned 1 she has become crazy in love with her daddy. Which is kind of difficult for me at times because i miss the way she used to be obsessed with me.. but i love seeing the dynamic between her and gustavo... it reminds me of my relationship with my dad... and i love it... she also loves her grandfather and happens to be crazy over him as well.. its cute!!
co sleeping has really plateaued for us... its gotten sooooo bad... i cant even describe how miserable nights can be sometimes... basically fitting my ever so restless toddler in our queen sized bed plus mommy and daddy just isn't cute anymore lol... on a nightly basis i get kicked in the face, head butted, and pretty much pushed off the bed.. i dont even know what its like to snuggle with my husband anymore lol....trying to put her in the crib is extremely hard... she screams until she throws up... if i wait until she falls asleep and then put her in she either wakes up immediately or she wakes up 3 hours later!! its just really bad... even the simple task of getting her to sleep is difficult as she bops around the bed 50 times and screams when we lay her down to sleep.. meanwhile this is usually after 4 hours of play time, and a warm bath with lavendar soap, a warm bottle, NOTHING works... ugh its extremely frustrating.
other than that i would say we have a normal 13 month old who loves to play and watch mickey mouse lol... i love her so much and wouldn't change anything about her... it's all part of the process. happy 13 months little minnow mommy loves you <3
WOW!!
I've been out of my blog loop for so long so much has happened.. i dont even think i would be able to pick up where i left off if i wanted too... having said that i'll just sum up:
My last blog post was when Andrea turned 11 months old.... and i had no idea what the next two months or weeks for that matter would hold.
Andrea is now asmathic we're not 100% sure how that came about but have a strong feeling it had something to do with her OLD daycare... old as in shes no longer there!! turns out everytime it would rain they would flood on the inside of the school.. i checked online since all infractions are public record with child care providers and there was no evidence of anything fishy going on. nonetheless i pulled her out for a month... worked part time.. trucked her with me to work from 12-5 everyday for three weeks... the week of her birthday she stayed home with my blessed mother in law who was able to give me some peace to actually be able to get things done for her party, my work at the office, and myself.. being last on the list lol.
the week before andrea turned 1 she got extremely sick... i'm talking major throat infection and fever of 104.. i tried to get the temp under control by alternating motrin and tylenol... plus her antibiotic for the infection... but nothing worked.. i even tried lukewarm baths which suprise suprise weren't a big hit for her or me...finally her pedi told me that if i couldn't get her fever under control i had to bring her into the er... we spent a night there... they poked her from every crevase on her tiny body...catheter, blood, throat, butt, finger... it was bad finally they ended up keeping her for the night and administered antibiotic through injection... we spent the night... just me and my angel.. by the morning she was doing muuuuch better... and the fevers became less frequent... eventually she was better.
her first birthday...
wow it was awesome!!! hot but awesome... i had been buying things and planning since she was 7 months old and to my surprise i used all of my goodies... it was a ballerina party, equipped with ponies, tutu's, a craft table and an icee machine. i was up til 3am the night before getting everything ready ... woke up at 6:30 the next morning to be at the park setting up with my angel of a best friend bea who helped me soooo incredibly much.. she's the best. all in all it was hot being that we were in the middle of july and having a birthday party at a park but i was happy with the outcome.. andrea was totally wired and didn't sleep that night until about 12am lol... we also had LOTS of family here for her celebration which meant we were non stop the entire week plus weekend... my little baby's first birthday was just perfect and i wouldn't have done anything different... after all your first baby only turns 1 once!!! moving forward... next year we'll be celebrating her bday with mickey and friends lol!!!
1 year well visit with dr. martinez...
phewwww where to begin...
andrea received her varicella vaccination and will be going back for her mmr this thursday.
she has reached all of her milestones however unfortunately was off the growth chart for her weight... not good news... granted she had just been sick and hospitalized the week before however he used the phrase "failure to thrive" AHHHH my heart fell to the pit of my stomach i cant even begin to describe the disappointment i felt as a mother at that point in time... basically what he said was that she could just be petite like me however being that shes off the chart for weight and she had lost 4 ounces since her follow up the previous week we needed to change her diet so no more baby food... her diet now consists of eating every few hours like normal and eating lots of protein, pastas, rice, beans, lentils, meat, lean ground beef, any white fish like tilipia...all the good stuff... sooo my challenge began... all in all andrea is a great eater but its a matter of finding what she likes and to have a variety as she gets tired of eating the same things. so far so good...she seems like shes plumped up in the past three weeks but only the scale will tell whats going on. if she is still not weighing what she should we'll have to go see a pedi gi and start running tests. Fingers crossed.
Daycare...
Andrea started a new daycare here in coral springs the first week of august so far its been a very positive experience... no more sicky or asthma episodes... however she is on singulair to keep her asthma under control. i also have her on a multivitamin to boost her little immune system... Shes now in the one year old class and walking a lot... although not 100% yet... the daycare is equipped with a webcame where i can monitor her wherever she is off of my computer... its really great but sometimes i think it makes me miss her more during the day. but she's definitely thriving.
My last blog post was when Andrea turned 11 months old.... and i had no idea what the next two months or weeks for that matter would hold.
Andrea is now asmathic we're not 100% sure how that came about but have a strong feeling it had something to do with her OLD daycare... old as in shes no longer there!! turns out everytime it would rain they would flood on the inside of the school.. i checked online since all infractions are public record with child care providers and there was no evidence of anything fishy going on. nonetheless i pulled her out for a month... worked part time.. trucked her with me to work from 12-5 everyday for three weeks... the week of her birthday she stayed home with my blessed mother in law who was able to give me some peace to actually be able to get things done for her party, my work at the office, and myself.. being last on the list lol.
the week before andrea turned 1 she got extremely sick... i'm talking major throat infection and fever of 104.. i tried to get the temp under control by alternating motrin and tylenol... plus her antibiotic for the infection... but nothing worked.. i even tried lukewarm baths which suprise suprise weren't a big hit for her or me...finally her pedi told me that if i couldn't get her fever under control i had to bring her into the er... we spent a night there... they poked her from every crevase on her tiny body...catheter, blood, throat, butt, finger... it was bad finally they ended up keeping her for the night and administered antibiotic through injection... we spent the night... just me and my angel.. by the morning she was doing muuuuch better... and the fevers became less frequent... eventually she was better.
her first birthday...
wow it was awesome!!! hot but awesome... i had been buying things and planning since she was 7 months old and to my surprise i used all of my goodies... it was a ballerina party, equipped with ponies, tutu's, a craft table and an icee machine. i was up til 3am the night before getting everything ready ... woke up at 6:30 the next morning to be at the park setting up with my angel of a best friend bea who helped me soooo incredibly much.. she's the best. all in all it was hot being that we were in the middle of july and having a birthday party at a park but i was happy with the outcome.. andrea was totally wired and didn't sleep that night until about 12am lol... we also had LOTS of family here for her celebration which meant we were non stop the entire week plus weekend... my little baby's first birthday was just perfect and i wouldn't have done anything different... after all your first baby only turns 1 once!!! moving forward... next year we'll be celebrating her bday with mickey and friends lol!!!
1 year well visit with dr. martinez...
phewwww where to begin...
andrea received her varicella vaccination and will be going back for her mmr this thursday.
she has reached all of her milestones however unfortunately was off the growth chart for her weight... not good news... granted she had just been sick and hospitalized the week before however he used the phrase "failure to thrive" AHHHH my heart fell to the pit of my stomach i cant even begin to describe the disappointment i felt as a mother at that point in time... basically what he said was that she could just be petite like me however being that shes off the chart for weight and she had lost 4 ounces since her follow up the previous week we needed to change her diet so no more baby food... her diet now consists of eating every few hours like normal and eating lots of protein, pastas, rice, beans, lentils, meat, lean ground beef, any white fish like tilipia...all the good stuff... sooo my challenge began... all in all andrea is a great eater but its a matter of finding what she likes and to have a variety as she gets tired of eating the same things. so far so good...she seems like shes plumped up in the past three weeks but only the scale will tell whats going on. if she is still not weighing what she should we'll have to go see a pedi gi and start running tests. Fingers crossed.
Daycare...
Andrea started a new daycare here in coral springs the first week of august so far its been a very positive experience... no more sicky or asthma episodes... however she is on singulair to keep her asthma under control. i also have her on a multivitamin to boost her little immune system... Shes now in the one year old class and walking a lot... although not 100% yet... the daycare is equipped with a webcame where i can monitor her wherever she is off of my computer... its really great but sometimes i think it makes me miss her more during the day. but she's definitely thriving.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Happy 11 Months Andrea
Good Morning,
Andrea is 11 months old today!!! WOW this time last year i was going crazy waiting for her arrival! wondering if my water would miraculously break or if i would have to be induced!! hoping with each doctors appointment she would tell me ... its time .. go straight to the hospital!!! i was doing every and anything to make this child show her beautiful little face :) too bad reality meant waiting a whole other month for her debut. :) but all in all we were ready.. her room was already complete with clothes diapers furniture EVERYTHING!!
Now fast forward a year and here we are... i'm the proud mommy of my very own 11 month old!!
Andrea is weighing close to 17 lbs she had a dr appt last week and she was at 16.12 which is pretty heavy for a little one who so graciously refuses to be put down on the floor, in her play yard, or in the crib... which lets be honest is pretty frustrating... but we're working on that :)
Milestones:
Words she says: Mama, mom, dada, daddeeee, shhhh, mmmmm, bye bye (with a wave), and hi
Gestures: Waves Bye bye, raises her hand to motion stop, gives kisses, and hugs.
Andrea is also standing on her own for a few seconds, can pull her self up to standing.. will take a few steps with assistance but really isn't to interested in walking at all... most of the time if i try to get her to stand or take steps she starts to scream and falls back on her butt so i dont think shes quite ready for that yet. She feeds her self different little things that i give her to eat on her own... puffs, baby cheetos, gold fish crackers, bread, baby vienna sausages.
She's still eating 2nd stage baby foods since i tried 3rd stage and she hated it so i went back to 2nd.. but i'm trying to work in different finger foods to get her used to different consistencies.
We wont have a well visit for her until next month at 1year old so no stats as of right now.
All in all she is a super loving baby, i'm so proud of how much she's learned so far and how much she's taught me as well. I'm so blessed to have such an amazing daughter!!
mommy loves you little minnow!!
Andrea is 11 months old today!!! WOW this time last year i was going crazy waiting for her arrival! wondering if my water would miraculously break or if i would have to be induced!! hoping with each doctors appointment she would tell me ... its time .. go straight to the hospital!!! i was doing every and anything to make this child show her beautiful little face :) too bad reality meant waiting a whole other month for her debut. :) but all in all we were ready.. her room was already complete with clothes diapers furniture EVERYTHING!!
Now fast forward a year and here we are... i'm the proud mommy of my very own 11 month old!!
Andrea is weighing close to 17 lbs she had a dr appt last week and she was at 16.12 which is pretty heavy for a little one who so graciously refuses to be put down on the floor, in her play yard, or in the crib... which lets be honest is pretty frustrating... but we're working on that :)
Milestones:
Words she says: Mama, mom, dada, daddeeee, shhhh, mmmmm, bye bye (with a wave), and hi
Gestures: Waves Bye bye, raises her hand to motion stop, gives kisses, and hugs.
Andrea is also standing on her own for a few seconds, can pull her self up to standing.. will take a few steps with assistance but really isn't to interested in walking at all... most of the time if i try to get her to stand or take steps she starts to scream and falls back on her butt so i dont think shes quite ready for that yet. She feeds her self different little things that i give her to eat on her own... puffs, baby cheetos, gold fish crackers, bread, baby vienna sausages.
She's still eating 2nd stage baby foods since i tried 3rd stage and she hated it so i went back to 2nd.. but i'm trying to work in different finger foods to get her used to different consistencies.
We wont have a well visit for her until next month at 1year old so no stats as of right now.
All in all she is a super loving baby, i'm so proud of how much she's learned so far and how much she's taught me as well. I'm so blessed to have such an amazing daughter!!
mommy loves you little minnow!!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Mommy Loves You
You're Better Than The BestI'm Lucky Just To Linger In Your Light
Cooler Than The Flip Side Of My Pillow Thats Right
Completely Unaware
Nothing Can Compare to Where
You Send Me, Lets me Know That Its Okay
Yeah Its Okay
And The Moments Where My Good Times Start To Fade
You Make Me Smile Like The Sun Fall Out Of Bed
Sing Like A Bird Dizzy In My Head
Spin Like a Record Crazy On a Sunday Night
You Make Me Dance Like a Fool Forget How to Breathe
Shine Like Gold Buzz Like a Bee
Oh You Make Me Smile
Even When You're Gone
Somehow You Come Along Just Like
A Flower Poking Through the Sidewalk Crack
And Just Like That
You Steal Away The Rain
I Dont Know How I Lived Without You
Cause Evertime I Get Around You
I See The Best of Me Inside Your Eyes
You Make Me Smile
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Hello June 15
And on the 15th of june we shall regain our place with the part of society that is no longer staying with mommy and daddy!!! WOOOOHOOOO
Today is an extremely special day one that i thank God for!!! We're finally getting the keys to our townhouse :) obviously being that today is tuesday and the weekend isn't until saturday we're going to be moving things in little by little during the week however we're expected to be totally in by the weekend. :) I'm so excited i can't wait to start putting things away and decorating. Andrea's room will have a new theme which is very exciting for crazy mommy's like myself lol!!! Of course it will be ballerina :) and i'm actually wondering how i didn't think of that theme in the first place. Yes people i know im obsessed, just let me be. I've got to be honest though, i'm really going to miss my mommy and daddy!! it's been so nice spending quality time with them and watching them enjoy andrea. It's an experience that we were lucky to have and we're truly blessed that we had their support while we were going though all the ins and outs the past month and a half has brought us. They are truly the best and i don't know what i would do without them.
Anyway... As for the rest of the house i really cannot wait to see how it comes out as far as the decorating goes!! Gotta get all of our pics up on the walls!! oh yes and of course andrea proof the whole place. The neighborhood is full of babies and little kids so i'm really excited. A new start is always fun and exciting. So let the moving begin as of 6 pm today :)
Today is an extremely special day one that i thank God for!!! We're finally getting the keys to our townhouse :) obviously being that today is tuesday and the weekend isn't until saturday we're going to be moving things in little by little during the week however we're expected to be totally in by the weekend. :) I'm so excited i can't wait to start putting things away and decorating. Andrea's room will have a new theme which is very exciting for crazy mommy's like myself lol!!! Of course it will be ballerina :) and i'm actually wondering how i didn't think of that theme in the first place. Yes people i know im obsessed, just let me be. I've got to be honest though, i'm really going to miss my mommy and daddy!! it's been so nice spending quality time with them and watching them enjoy andrea. It's an experience that we were lucky to have and we're truly blessed that we had their support while we were going though all the ins and outs the past month and a half has brought us. They are truly the best and i don't know what i would do without them.
Anyway... As for the rest of the house i really cannot wait to see how it comes out as far as the decorating goes!! Gotta get all of our pics up on the walls!! oh yes and of course andrea proof the whole place. The neighborhood is full of babies and little kids so i'm really excited. A new start is always fun and exciting. So let the moving begin as of 6 pm today :)
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Moving Day
An update on the house hunting.. We found a townhouse in Sunrise.. its cute a 3/2.5 with 1 car garage... pretty close to sawgrass mills. i'll definitely miss the convenience of pembroke pines but i think this is the right move for us at this point. Official moving date will be June 15th and then begins the rush of finishing up andrea's birthday plans. I'm just hoping from here on out we can get what we need done and then relax a little bit. Things have been so rushed this past month that i cant even see straight anymore. But all in all we're blessed that God opened this door for us.
Andrea is 10 Months Old
ahhhhh We've now entered the double digit months!!! Lord!!!
Saturday may 22 my little minnow turned 10 months old.
At 10 months my yummy little girl is pulling herself up to standing while holding on to whatever piece of furniture she can get her chunky little hands on. she says mama, dada, baba, dat, mmmm, we switched her to 3rd stage foods but she doesn't seem to like them very much so i'm thinking we should keep her on 2nd stage just a little longer. she crawls everywhere. returns the smiles when given to her. she gives kisses when asked, shes so loving and affectionate.. she loves to snuggle and her favorite toys are stuffed animals of all shapes and sizes. she's weighing in at 16.9 lbs and all in all is a complete joy to have in our lives. She's truly made my life worth living in a way i never thought existed before. I love her more than words... Happy 10 month birthday andrea you make everything brighter mommy loves you!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Andrea's 9 Month Check Up
I just realized that i never updated for andrea's 9 month check so here goes!!
at 9 months old:
Weight: 16lbs even
Height:28 Inches long
Head Circumference: 17
Milestones: Pulling herself up to standing, standing alone for a few seconds, crawling consistantly, following mommy daddy, gramps, grammy EVERYWHERE!!
Pointing to everything, saying mama, dada, baba, da, ba, eh, mmmm. responding to her name and various nicknames, smiling when we smile at her, laughing when tickled, reaching for us to hold her, very slight stranger anxiety, holding her own bottle, feeding herself finger foods.
the nineth month was very big for my sweet little minnow she has learned and grown alot... and continues to surprise me every day with how big she is and how much she knows. Birthday plans are still in the works even though i'm not spending every waking moment on them these days since we're house hunting. But God has been good to us and has always opened doors... like gustavo's new job which came at just the right time and is truly a blessing. I know andrea's first beautiful birthday will be great and just perfect for her. So i'm not all to worried. i'm sure everything will come together in due time..
at 9 months old:
Weight: 16lbs even
Height:28 Inches long
Head Circumference: 17
Milestones: Pulling herself up to standing, standing alone for a few seconds, crawling consistantly, following mommy daddy, gramps, grammy EVERYWHERE!!
Pointing to everything, saying mama, dada, baba, da, ba, eh, mmmm. responding to her name and various nicknames, smiling when we smile at her, laughing when tickled, reaching for us to hold her, very slight stranger anxiety, holding her own bottle, feeding herself finger foods.
the nineth month was very big for my sweet little minnow she has learned and grown alot... and continues to surprise me every day with how big she is and how much she knows. Birthday plans are still in the works even though i'm not spending every waking moment on them these days since we're house hunting. But God has been good to us and has always opened doors... like gustavo's new job which came at just the right time and is truly a blessing. I know andrea's first beautiful birthday will be great and just perfect for her. So i'm not all to worried. i'm sure everything will come together in due time..
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
What we came home to
Once we got home from puerto rico on sunday we had to go pick up our other car which was left at my apartment...before we headed back to my parents house...once we were there andrea needed a bottle so we went in for a quick minute... however that minute was just quick enough for me to see someone scurrying across my back sliding glass door... we went outside around back to see two guys running down the back end of all the apartment buildings and crossing into a large abandoned golf course... when we turned around we saw our next door neighbor's window had been broken, the screen had been torn out, and it was left partially open... looks like our little intruders had paid our neighbors a visit. they weren't home at the time so i called the police and within minutes three squad cars were there...they busted the door down and had their guns pulled... ughhhh what a feeling to have... this is simply rediculous and i'm having an extremely hard time dealing with this crap especially since it keeps happening and who knows who elses apartment was broken into while we've been gone its just so upsetting... they weren't able to find the guys... to much time had lapsed and the only identification i had on them was what they were wearing ... we only saw the back of them..but i know they were the ones..anyway i guess one day they will surely get a rude awakening after all the simplicity of greed can be a very dangerous road to travel.
Our Trip to Puerto Rico
Last wednesday we went to puerto rico to show off andrea to the family!
all of gustavo's family lives there and we really hadn't had a chance to get out there until recently anyway it was a nice time... we were there wednesday through sunday... andrea slept the entire flight both ways which was great.. we even got lucky and had all three seats to ourselves because the people in the third seat were nice enough to move... although it was probably bc they didn't want to be bothered by a 9 month old baby monkey jumping all over them lol!!! anyway... when we were in puerto rico we stayed with my in laws ... andrea went in the pool for the first time and we took a drive to old san juan and visited el morro which is a spanish fortress... old san juan is fulll of history and is always so nice and relaxing to go and walk around.. we had hot dogs and flew a kite... the weather was breezy nothing like the sticky florida weather we're used too.
on our last day there .. my mother and father in law had all the family over to the house to meet andrea!! everyone loved her and as a matter of fact she loved everyone right back.. she went to them with open arms...and they brought her all sorts of gifts. it was great and i'm so happy she got to spend some time with her other half of the family... i think its so important that she know them...she also fell in love with my mother in law's cat!! she came home saying dato (andrea lingo for gato)... very very cute..
also on our last night there we andrea and i experienced our first earth quake... it was a 5.8 on the richter scale and was felt throughout the entire island of puerto rico as well as the virgin islands and dominican republic!! crazy... it lasted for what i was aware of for about 30 seconds... but its a very surreal feeling.
Pictures will be posted as soon as i can... we're staying with my parents until we find somewhere to move... until then my computer will be in storage...
all of gustavo's family lives there and we really hadn't had a chance to get out there until recently anyway it was a nice time... we were there wednesday through sunday... andrea slept the entire flight both ways which was great.. we even got lucky and had all three seats to ourselves because the people in the third seat were nice enough to move... although it was probably bc they didn't want to be bothered by a 9 month old baby monkey jumping all over them lol!!! anyway... when we were in puerto rico we stayed with my in laws ... andrea went in the pool for the first time and we took a drive to old san juan and visited el morro which is a spanish fortress... old san juan is fulll of history and is always so nice and relaxing to go and walk around.. we had hot dogs and flew a kite... the weather was breezy nothing like the sticky florida weather we're used too.
on our last day there .. my mother and father in law had all the family over to the house to meet andrea!! everyone loved her and as a matter of fact she loved everyone right back.. she went to them with open arms...and they brought her all sorts of gifts. it was great and i'm so happy she got to spend some time with her other half of the family... i think its so important that she know them...she also fell in love with my mother in law's cat!! she came home saying dato (andrea lingo for gato)... very very cute..
also on our last night there we andrea and i experienced our first earth quake... it was a 5.8 on the richter scale and was felt throughout the entire island of puerto rico as well as the virgin islands and dominican republic!! crazy... it lasted for what i was aware of for about 30 seconds... but its a very surreal feeling.
Pictures will be posted as soon as i can... we're staying with my parents until we find somewhere to move... until then my computer will be in storage...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
How to start breathing again?
for as long as i can remember i've used writing as an outlet for my feelings... fight with my parents.. i wrote... fight with boyfriends... i wrote... fight with friends... i wrote... fell in love i wrote... once i got married i let my writing go a bit... maybe i just didn't have anything to vent about..but since i got pregnant and had andrea i've started writing again.. its more me just trying to get my thoughts out and document andrea's beautiful little life. Well today i'm writing to vent... today i'm writing to possibly start breathing again...today i'm writing to write.. for me...
Saturday May 8 the day before my first mothers day between 2:45 and 5pm our home was broken into and buglarized.
Gustavo met me at the shops at pembroke to pick up andrea bc i was getting my hair done for mothers day... he wanted to stay with me and i told him that it was way to hot ... that he should just take andrea and go home ... he stayed... (miracle in disguise. thank god) Had he gone home when i told him to he would've walked in with our daughter to these strangers in our home.
He ended up staying and i dropped andrea off with him so i could make one more stop before the day was over..i got 1 block down the street when he called me to tell me what had happened. I rushed home... the cops were there within 10 minutes...from that point we filed the report and forensics showed up within 30 minutes.. they were able to get fingerprints from our closet but im willing to bet they're our own.. they advised we should be contacted within a week and a half to go down to get fingerprinted for comparison. They didn't take too much if thats even an honest statement to make and the cop assured us the culprits would be back... this was a warning... this was someone who lived in our complex... someone who has been watching us... who knows when we're home and when we're not... who knows our schedule... i couldn't help but stand outside our home and just stare off into the distance wondering if these lowly people were watching everything unfold.. watching the cops get there... watching me get in my car with my daughter and a packed bag and leave for my parents house. watch the very breath inside of me be taken.
At first i wasn't angry i was just in shock... now i've gone through a few other choice feelings.
i feel violated.... these strangers were in my home... went through my drawers... helped themselves to my belongings... they violated the trust that i had in the solace of being in our home... where i lay my head and my daughter laughs... they violated the home gustavo and i were married in... the home we made a baby in... and the home andrea was born in... we painted and decorated her room put every piece of furniture together ourselves... and built memories and a life... that was taken in one instant.
i feel hurt... hurt because we are good people and i dont feel bad saying it...WE ARE GOOD PEOPLE... stand up people... that go out of our way to help others... that love each other and our family ... that dont bother others... but instead respect those around us. We work hard every day for everything we've earned... we live a simple life full of love and admiration for each other...we know what it is to struggle and have absolutely nothing...we know what it is to start from scratch and sacrifice to make our life work. and now we know what it is not to be able to breathe....
i feel angry... angry because we've been taken advantage of... angry because they didn't just take posessions they took memories... this will forever be the memory of my first mothers day, of this apartment... of this day in my life... after all life is made up of moments and they took that moment for their own selfish cowardly reasons and i'll never be able to get that back. they have now backed us into a corner because i cannot step foot back into that apartment without wondering if today will be the day they decide to return. i cant put my daughter to bed in her room without staying up all night to keep her safe...i feel backed into a corner because we were absolutely not prepared to move out of this apartment overnight and now this is the reality we're faced with.
i feel scared...scared because everything could have been taken from me in one quick flash... had gustavo gone back home with the baby while these idiots were there... scared that life has come to this... that we live in a drowning economy full of people who feel they need to do these things to survive.. scared that my daughter is going to have to grow up in this society.. scared that there isn't a damn thing i can do to change this situation or turn back time... or catch them...and scared that i'm always going to feel this way... this tightness in my chest and sick feeling in my stomach...scared that i'll never be able to give anybody the benefit of the doubt ever again because bad things happen and there are to many people out there with bad intentions.
I know that i need to go back to church .... i know that i will find peace in God... but the sad thing is that i dont want that... i dont want to feel better.. i want to hate these scumbags with all i've got i want them to feel pain and i want them to pay for what they did. even for the possibility of what the could've taken from me in addition to what was already stolen. but the worst part of all of this is that i know they wont be caught and even if they were the punishment they would receive pales in comparison to what i feel they deserve.
Saturday May 8 the day before my first mothers day between 2:45 and 5pm our home was broken into and buglarized.
Gustavo met me at the shops at pembroke to pick up andrea bc i was getting my hair done for mothers day... he wanted to stay with me and i told him that it was way to hot ... that he should just take andrea and go home ... he stayed... (miracle in disguise. thank god) Had he gone home when i told him to he would've walked in with our daughter to these strangers in our home.
He ended up staying and i dropped andrea off with him so i could make one more stop before the day was over..i got 1 block down the street when he called me to tell me what had happened. I rushed home... the cops were there within 10 minutes...from that point we filed the report and forensics showed up within 30 minutes.. they were able to get fingerprints from our closet but im willing to bet they're our own.. they advised we should be contacted within a week and a half to go down to get fingerprinted for comparison. They didn't take too much if thats even an honest statement to make and the cop assured us the culprits would be back... this was a warning... this was someone who lived in our complex... someone who has been watching us... who knows when we're home and when we're not... who knows our schedule... i couldn't help but stand outside our home and just stare off into the distance wondering if these lowly people were watching everything unfold.. watching the cops get there... watching me get in my car with my daughter and a packed bag and leave for my parents house. watch the very breath inside of me be taken.
At first i wasn't angry i was just in shock... now i've gone through a few other choice feelings.
i feel violated.... these strangers were in my home... went through my drawers... helped themselves to my belongings... they violated the trust that i had in the solace of being in our home... where i lay my head and my daughter laughs... they violated the home gustavo and i were married in... the home we made a baby in... and the home andrea was born in... we painted and decorated her room put every piece of furniture together ourselves... and built memories and a life... that was taken in one instant.
i feel hurt... hurt because we are good people and i dont feel bad saying it...WE ARE GOOD PEOPLE... stand up people... that go out of our way to help others... that love each other and our family ... that dont bother others... but instead respect those around us. We work hard every day for everything we've earned... we live a simple life full of love and admiration for each other...we know what it is to struggle and have absolutely nothing...we know what it is to start from scratch and sacrifice to make our life work. and now we know what it is not to be able to breathe....
i feel angry... angry because we've been taken advantage of... angry because they didn't just take posessions they took memories... this will forever be the memory of my first mothers day, of this apartment... of this day in my life... after all life is made up of moments and they took that moment for their own selfish cowardly reasons and i'll never be able to get that back. they have now backed us into a corner because i cannot step foot back into that apartment without wondering if today will be the day they decide to return. i cant put my daughter to bed in her room without staying up all night to keep her safe...i feel backed into a corner because we were absolutely not prepared to move out of this apartment overnight and now this is the reality we're faced with.
i feel scared...scared because everything could have been taken from me in one quick flash... had gustavo gone back home with the baby while these idiots were there... scared that life has come to this... that we live in a drowning economy full of people who feel they need to do these things to survive.. scared that my daughter is going to have to grow up in this society.. scared that there isn't a damn thing i can do to change this situation or turn back time... or catch them...and scared that i'm always going to feel this way... this tightness in my chest and sick feeling in my stomach...scared that i'll never be able to give anybody the benefit of the doubt ever again because bad things happen and there are to many people out there with bad intentions.
I know that i need to go back to church .... i know that i will find peace in God... but the sad thing is that i dont want that... i dont want to feel better.. i want to hate these scumbags with all i've got i want them to feel pain and i want them to pay for what they did. even for the possibility of what the could've taken from me in addition to what was already stolen. but the worst part of all of this is that i know they wont be caught and even if they were the punishment they would receive pales in comparison to what i feel they deserve.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Andrea's Boyfriend!
So this will be a pretty short and sweet post.. however i just had to share..
This morning when i dropped off andrea at daycare there was a little boy there who seems to be about 5 months old... cant roll over or crawl.. so the teacher puts him on the mat on his back.. as soon as andrea sees him she crawls over and starts kissing him all over her forehead. THE CUTEST THING EVER... before i knew it his forehead was full of her drool!!! I'm sitting there thinking ummm if this were someone elses baby slopping up my kids forehead i'd probably want them to pull him off of her ... so i did... well i tried.. i even tried asking her to give me some of those sweet kisses but it was a no go!!! she wanted to give hiiiiiiim kisses not mommy!!! HAHAHA it was adorable and made my morning to see how she loves to love and smother ... just like me!!!!! anyway it was a nice start to my morning... HAPPY HUMP DAY ;)
This morning when i dropped off andrea at daycare there was a little boy there who seems to be about 5 months old... cant roll over or crawl.. so the teacher puts him on the mat on his back.. as soon as andrea sees him she crawls over and starts kissing him all over her forehead. THE CUTEST THING EVER... before i knew it his forehead was full of her drool!!! I'm sitting there thinking ummm if this were someone elses baby slopping up my kids forehead i'd probably want them to pull him off of her ... so i did... well i tried.. i even tried asking her to give me some of those sweet kisses but it was a no go!!! she wanted to give hiiiiiiim kisses not mommy!!! HAHAHA it was adorable and made my morning to see how she loves to love and smother ... just like me!!!!! anyway it was a nice start to my morning... HAPPY HUMP DAY ;)
Monday, April 26, 2010
Happy Nine Months Andrea!!
Good Morning...
Well another month has completely flown by!!!
Andrea turned 9 Months old on April 22 which was last thursday ... by days have been super busy lately so i've been keeping up with my blog as much as i possibly can... anyway my plan was to take some shots of her this weekend but it didn't quite work out so hopefully i'll be able to get those done in a week or so... But as far as andrea's development goes here it is:
Andrea is actively crawling and trying to stand ... she can stand supported for a little bit and pull herself up to standing sometimes...
She's eating everything we eat basically. and is still on stage 2 baby food as well as formula.. we'll see what changes we need to make when she goes in for her 9 month appointment on may 7th
She's babbling and can say mama, dada, eh, baba, mmmmm
She recognizes that i'm mama and will shout out for me at any given moment.
She recognizes her daddy as "eh" lol its really funny and we're not totally sure where that came from..
Daycare is doing her well... she cries every morning when i drop her off but as soon as i turn the corner and listen she's already stopped... we do have rough mornings some of the time but for the most part it's been a pretty positive experience. The best feeling in the world is going to pick her up in the afternoon and see her crawling towards me at warp speed screaming out of excitement that her mommy is there to get her!! it's such a great experience for me and makes my days so much better!! I still miss her so much during the day but i think we're getting better as each day passes.
Well another month has completely flown by!!!
Andrea turned 9 Months old on April 22 which was last thursday ... by days have been super busy lately so i've been keeping up with my blog as much as i possibly can... anyway my plan was to take some shots of her this weekend but it didn't quite work out so hopefully i'll be able to get those done in a week or so... But as far as andrea's development goes here it is:
Andrea is actively crawling and trying to stand ... she can stand supported for a little bit and pull herself up to standing sometimes...
She's eating everything we eat basically. and is still on stage 2 baby food as well as formula.. we'll see what changes we need to make when she goes in for her 9 month appointment on may 7th
She's babbling and can say mama, dada, eh, baba, mmmmm
She recognizes that i'm mama and will shout out for me at any given moment.
She recognizes her daddy as "eh" lol its really funny and we're not totally sure where that came from..
Daycare is doing her well... she cries every morning when i drop her off but as soon as i turn the corner and listen she's already stopped... we do have rough mornings some of the time but for the most part it's been a pretty positive experience. The best feeling in the world is going to pick her up in the afternoon and see her crawling towards me at warp speed screaming out of excitement that her mommy is there to get her!! it's such a great experience for me and makes my days so much better!! I still miss her so much during the day but i think we're getting better as each day passes.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Good Weekend...
Andrea's Bday Invitation
This weekend was so relaxing and exactly what i needed... hubby took great care of me and andrea so we could recoop from the last week and a half of being sick... i finally broke down and went to the dr to get an antibiotic for my little daycare initiation... after being pretty much without a voice for three days not to mention a terrible night thursday complete with a sore throat that had me up from 2-4am because of the pain... anyway i've been on my antibiotic for three days now and i'm feeling almost 100% thank God!!
Andrea is almost back to normal if we could just get through her cough and runny nose... i'm hoping to have the luck of being dr office free this week... fingers crossed..
Other than that this weekend i stopped by the nutrition store and picked up some vitamins...went to jamba juice and got myself a coldbuster smoothie full of immunity boosters and began my wheat grass shot regimen for those of you who think im a little off regarding the wheat grass shot.. my parents swear by it.. and it seems to help with just about anything.. the taste wasn't as bad as i thought it would be either..
Saturday night i was able to work on and complete andrea's birthday invitations as well as did a practice run of her bday cupcakes :) i liked how both came out so i think we're well on our way... my mom picked up a bunch of bday ballerina decor and she also set an appointment for andrea's first year pics ... i did some research on the rest of the party supplies i'll need to get as well as center pieces. I'm getting so excited as we draw nearer to the big day!!
Today we spent some quality time with my sister and my neice bella!! it was a great day :) I'm so sad to see the weekend end ... but gotta get through another week to see the next weekend...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Quoted from the bible...
Have faith in God Jesus replied. I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, Go throw yourself into the sea and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what HE says will happen it will be done for him.
Mark 11:22-23
HAVE A BLESSED DAY :)
Mark 11:22-23
HAVE A BLESSED DAY :)
Not feeling to hot
So since Andreas little welcome to daycare gift i've been hit with the sicky bug!! it's truly miserable to be sick when you have a little one.. even if they're perfectly healthy.. unfortunately andrea is still struggling with the congestion but no fever whatsoever... she's a bit on the cranky side although i think its to be expected since she's also teething... luckily gustavo has been wonderful about putting her to bed this week so i can get to bed early which i'm very thankful for...
On another note andrea is a super crawler these days. she started crawling on thursday and is now at the point where i can not leave her in one place and expect her to be there when i get back!! its the cutest thing... she follows us around the apartment constantly... i love it and i love seeing her grow and reach new milestones!!
Hopefully this weekend i'll be feeling better so we can go hang out at the park or the beach which is our favorite past time... i'm so excited for andrea to see the little baby duckies and other animals that have recently been born :) i love spring!!! yayyy
On another note andrea is a super crawler these days. she started crawling on thursday and is now at the point where i can not leave her in one place and expect her to be there when i get back!! its the cutest thing... she follows us around the apartment constantly... i love it and i love seeing her grow and reach new milestones!!
Hopefully this weekend i'll be feeling better so we can go hang out at the park or the beach which is our favorite past time... i'm so excited for andrea to see the little baby duckies and other animals that have recently been born :) i love spring!!! yayyy
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Andrea's First Day of School
Andrea's first day of daycare was on monday... Gustavo and i both dropped her off together.. it wasn't to bad.. mommy didn't shed any tears.. i went by around 12 to check on her.. she was sleeping like a sweet little angel :) when i picked her up the teacher said she was a little on the fussy side which was to be expected because of the change...
Day 2: She cried when i left her which broke my heart ... Gustavo picked her up that day because i had to work late.. he said she was playing with another little baby... which made me happy to hear.
Day 3: No tears when i dropped her off but i did things differently.. i sat and played with her and the other babies for a few minutes before i left.. :) when i picked her up that day she was on the floor happy as could be playing with her little baby friends!! i was so happy to see that.
That afternoon she came home with the sniffles.. i put her to bed around 7:30 thinking wow she already has the sniffles lol... to my surprise at 10:30 little one woke up with a 101 fever yeah not so great considering she'd only been in daycare 3 stinkin days.... yuuuuuck... had to cancel my playdate for the following evening with my favorite people.. and i was stuck at the dr basically all day... doc said it's viral and should subside within 72 hours... today's sunday and i'm dreading the whole daycare mission that has to begin all over again tomorrow after a pretty difficult last 4 days of course i couldn't get away unscathed yesterday i woke up feeling like my head was going to explode... now mommy has the sniffles lol... i've been popping vitamins and tylenol cold and flu like its going out of style..so hopefully i'm at least 90% better by tomorrow morning to start this whole craziness all over again. ugh... all i can say is that seeing my little one like this made me feel so guilty about putting her in daycare... almost wondering if we'd waited to have children maybe being a stay at home mommy would be an option for us and i'd be able to keep her from getting sick so often which i know comes with the territory of being in daycare.. but then again i think to myself either now or later she'd have to be exposed to school or daycare and she'd be getting sick just the same...time to suck up the guilt and just move forward.
LOTS TO CATCH UP ON!
Well, first there was Easter:
Easter was spent with my Mom, we went to breakfast then to church service after that we went from house to house like a couple of easter bunnies leaving goodies for everyone :) our night ended back at my parents house where my sister and her kids met us to open easter baskets! it was a great first easter for Andrea, she received lots of cute things in her easter baskets :) It was a joyful time in our life and i'm thankful for the real meaning of Easter which is the resurrection. Thank you Jesus for giving your life so we could have one.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
A Day At The Park
This weekend was beautiful!! the weather was awesome and we couldn't have picked a better day to have a bbq picnic at the park. We set up andrea's playpen under a shady tree had hot dogs and hamburgers and snapped some pictures!! My mom and dad joined us, which was nice. The day was so relaxing. Andrea got to see two horses ride through as well as an alligator that was swimming in the lake literally feet from where we were (that was a little unnerving lets be honest) but besides that it was a great time. Some of my favorite memories were of my own family bbq's as a child with my parents just passing the time i hope andrea can experience the same kind of quality time spent together that she can one day look back and smile about.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Andrea is 8 Months Old
WOW another month gone by!!
Andrea turned 8 months old on the 22. She doesn't have a well visit this month but she does have an appointment on friday to get a physical and her immunization records in order to begin daycare so i'll most likely have her current weight and length to report at that time. But as far as milestones:
Andrea Can:
Say "mama" consistently
wave "byebye"
say "abye"
She crawled once but hasn't been able to do it consistently yet.
Sits unsupported
plays alone
LOVES to interact with other babies
She's now eating whatever we eat along with the gerber puffs. She's on 2nd stage foods and has basically gone through every kind you see on the shelf.
All in all my baby ballerina is doing EXTREMELY well and im very proud just like every other month of her life!!!
happy 8 months my sweet girl!!! mommy loves you!!!
Andrea turned 8 months old on the 22. She doesn't have a well visit this month but she does have an appointment on friday to get a physical and her immunization records in order to begin daycare so i'll most likely have her current weight and length to report at that time. But as far as milestones:
Andrea Can:
Say "mama" consistently
wave "byebye"
say "abye"
She crawled once but hasn't been able to do it consistently yet.
Sits unsupported
plays alone
LOVES to interact with other babies
She's now eating whatever we eat along with the gerber puffs. She's on 2nd stage foods and has basically gone through every kind you see on the shelf.
All in all my baby ballerina is doing EXTREMELY well and im very proud just like every other month of her life!!!
happy 8 months my sweet girl!!! mommy loves you!!!
Day Care
on april 5th andrea will no longer have a babysitter or come to work with mommy :(
She will be starting school lol obviously daycare but still i feel like my little girl is growing up sooooo fast :) really it just got to a point that gustavo and i feel that she is craving the social interaction of other babies. so we hunted down the daycare she will be attending :) it's right down the street from my office which i figured would be most convenient since .... well... I'M ALWAYS HERE!!! anyway so far we're really happy with the feedback we've gotten and i've visited the facility 3different times already and met the teacher so we definitely feel comfortable. and more than anything i'm excited for my bright and beautiful daughter. When we took her in there to see the classroom for the first time she lit up!! seeing all the toys and the other babies she immediately wanted to play :) so i can't wait for her to be able to go and interact i think its important for her development and since she turned 7 months old it seems as though she needs more stimulation because she gets bored so easily. I think this is going to be a great change for her.
She will be starting school lol obviously daycare but still i feel like my little girl is growing up sooooo fast :) really it just got to a point that gustavo and i feel that she is craving the social interaction of other babies. so we hunted down the daycare she will be attending :) it's right down the street from my office which i figured would be most convenient since .... well... I'M ALWAYS HERE!!! anyway so far we're really happy with the feedback we've gotten and i've visited the facility 3different times already and met the teacher so we definitely feel comfortable. and more than anything i'm excited for my bright and beautiful daughter. When we took her in there to see the classroom for the first time she lit up!! seeing all the toys and the other babies she immediately wanted to play :) so i can't wait for her to be able to go and interact i think its important for her development and since she turned 7 months old it seems as though she needs more stimulation because she gets bored so easily. I think this is going to be a great change for her.
Michael Buble
i'm a huuuuge fan of michael buble and have been for many years now but have never had the chance to see him perform live. however March 12 hubby got us tickets to go see him in concert and what a performance he gave!!!! WOW he's wonderful and i love him even more now. The concert started around 9pm and michael played straight through til almost 11 with no intermission. It was awesome!! before we headed to the concert we stopped to have sushi for dinner which was a nice change for us. we went to sushi inn in sunrise!! after the concert we headed home ... my parents had the baby for the night which was very nice of them :) saturday morning we headed to my parents house to pick up my little ballerina and start our weekend.. all in all the concert was GREAT!!!!
its been awhile
buuuut in my defense we've had a lot going on... Gustavo was out of town on a business trip last week so lord knows i didn't have time to keep up with anything then ESPECIALLY my blog. lol i was lucky if andrea let me take a shower. anyway he's back now which is great news. Now i can get back to my regularly scheduled program :) i've really come to enjoy my blog its become therapeutic for me so i'll be updating with the latest asap!!
Monday, March 8, 2010
My Baby Ballerina Andrea!!
Well the time has come!!! i've officially started planning my sweet baby's first birthday... i am aware of the fact that we're 4 months away but i think the time has come... lots of plans these days lol birthdays vacations and pretty soon its going to be time to start xmas shopping which i also plan to do wayyyyy in advance... the way i figure it if i start early enough for all of these things it's more time consuming but definitely more affordable in the end plus i will be able to do pretty much all the things i want instead of waiting until the last minute and being forced to scimp on certain things. this post is about my little ones birthday so i'll get back to that:
We'll be holding her birthday party at the park probably cb smith or another local park like tree tops. We should be reserving the Pavillion within the next two weeks so that will be taken care of.
The theme is going to be ballerina... So of course my baby ballerina will have her own pink tutu and tiara. and then i plan to have tutu's for all of the little ballerinas who will be attending.
I'm still looking into some sort of activity for the kids to do so that's still up in the air.
of course i'm researching all sorts of decor and will be visiting michaels, joanne's fabrics, and a.c. moore.
We're looking into either pony's or a toddler bounce house for the park depending on the rules and regulations.
so far thats all i have so i'll definitely be posting as we get closer. Needless to say i'm nerdishly excited for my first borns first birthday party.. of course what kind of first time mommy would i be if i didn't go above and beyond for such a special day in my sweet girl's life.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
The Diaz Family Vacation
This will be the First Annual Diaz Family Vacation!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so excited :) No matter how simple it may be i know its so important to take the time to do things like family vacations. Its the time you spend and the memories you make :) So far we're looking in to South Carolina possibly Myrtle Beach and Sarasota Florida. so far i've gotten pretty positive feedback and pricing on sarasota since september is their value season!! Exciting stuff :)
I'll of course keep posting through out the course of the year what i come up with but so far so good!! :)
i'm so excited :) No matter how simple it may be i know its so important to take the time to do things like family vacations. Its the time you spend and the memories you make :) So far we're looking in to South Carolina possibly Myrtle Beach and Sarasota Florida. so far i've gotten pretty positive feedback and pricing on sarasota since september is their value season!! Exciting stuff :)
I'll of course keep posting through out the course of the year what i come up with but so far so good!! :)
Thursday: Little Thankfuls
I've decided that i'm going to add on to my little blog lol!!!
i follow many blogs that have something designated for a specific day of the week...therefore i will be adding "little thankfuls" Once a week i will post what i'm thankful for, why i feel blessed, what good things are going on in my life! In life it's sooo easy to get swept up in the mundane, "bad" things that are around you that you forget all that you have!! and that's me right there... so i'm doing this as a reminder that i need to wake up and smell roses i have sooo much to be thankful for that God has placed in my life.
Today's Little Thankfuls:
Of course i wouldn't be me if i didn't say i am so thankful for my family, my beautiful daughter and especially my husband.
I'm thankful that i have a job with so much unemployment out there!
I'm thankful for my daughters smiles!
I'm thankful for the way my husband understands me and the way we say what the other person is thinking at that very moment.
i'm thankful that andrea is surrounded by so much love that it shows from the moment she wakes up in the morning until the second she goes to sleep at night.
i'm thankful that i'm able to plan our "DIAZ FAMILY VACATION" no matter how simple it may be.
and lastly for today:
I'm thankful that i'm able to look to the future with excitement just knowing that i'll be with gustavo and andrea. if life has been this wonderful up til now i can only imagine the great things god has planned for us.
i follow many blogs that have something designated for a specific day of the week...therefore i will be adding "little thankfuls" Once a week i will post what i'm thankful for, why i feel blessed, what good things are going on in my life! In life it's sooo easy to get swept up in the mundane, "bad" things that are around you that you forget all that you have!! and that's me right there... so i'm doing this as a reminder that i need to wake up and smell roses i have sooo much to be thankful for that God has placed in my life.
Today's Little Thankfuls:
Of course i wouldn't be me if i didn't say i am so thankful for my family, my beautiful daughter and especially my husband.
I'm thankful that i have a job with so much unemployment out there!
I'm thankful for my daughters smiles!
I'm thankful for the way my husband understands me and the way we say what the other person is thinking at that very moment.
i'm thankful that andrea is surrounded by so much love that it shows from the moment she wakes up in the morning until the second she goes to sleep at night.
i'm thankful that i'm able to plan our "DIAZ FAMILY VACATION" no matter how simple it may be.
and lastly for today:
I'm thankful that i'm able to look to the future with excitement just knowing that i'll be with gustavo and andrea. if life has been this wonderful up til now i can only imagine the great things god has planned for us.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
My Mommy's Birthday!!
Sunday was my mommy's birthday!!! We went to eat at buca di beppo which was such an unique restaurant!!! the food was great and the atmosphere was definitely different than anywhere i'd ever been!!
andrea had fun trying all the different foods lol and we all had a great time celebrating a great day with the woman who has literally changed and shaped my life in more ways than one. I'm so grateful for my mom because our story is a little different than most mom and daughter stories you'll hear.. there's no tale of how she found out she was pregnant whether i was planned or not... whether i was made out of love or if i was an oopsie... there was no tale of 9 long months that she carried me and then the trip to the hospital or labor or delivery for that matter... none of that but there is a story of of a woman who god created just for me... to be my mother, to love me, to guide me, to teach me, to inturn raise me to be the kind of mother that i've always dreamed of being. the story begins when i was 7 years old she was very young and fell in love with a man who basically had a ready made family waiting for her. She was the missing link to our family she made my dad and i complete and for that i will be forever grateful. I dont have any memories from before the age of 7. i have one baby picture which now belongs to her. it was one that my grandmother saved for me. other than that as far as i know my life started at 7. i may not have stories about when i was a baby or the first word i said or the first steps i took but i do have a life filled with love and happiness filled with memories of parents who fell madly in love with each other and loved me with all that they had every second of every day. they made me the center of their universe and for that i will always be grateful. my mother sacrificed the best years of her life to put me first to give me what she never had to teach me lovingly and love me unconditionally.. you could never tell that she wasn't my biological mother if not for the physical attributes that show her age clearly. She is amazing in more ways than one. i may not have a hospital story of my mother the way most people do but the day i got pregnant the first place we went was to tell my parents, she was there for me 9 long months of my pregnancy, as well as every second of my labor and delivery. she was there when my daughter first opened her eyes, she changed her first diaper. SHE, MY MOTHER was there!! so in a way we did have that pregnancy experience, we had the hospital and we the birth....
i'd just like to say this.. God works in very mysterious ways... just because you dont get the answer to your prayers that YOU are expecting doesn't mean he hasn't ANSWERED. i think that's the moral of this story. She's my mother and i'm her daughter. a mother isn't just the person who brings you into this world no she's the one who quietly guides you through this world, who raises you with love and affection, who sheds tears and spends sleepless nights worrying about you no matter your age no matter where you are married or not adult or child. a mother can never be replaced.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS
THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE COMPLETE
And then all of a sudden
Oh, it seemed so strange to me
How we went from something's missing
To a family
Lookin' back all I can say
About all the things She did for me
Is I hope I'm at least half the MOM
That She didn't have to be
andrea had fun trying all the different foods lol and we all had a great time celebrating a great day with the woman who has literally changed and shaped my life in more ways than one. I'm so grateful for my mom because our story is a little different than most mom and daughter stories you'll hear.. there's no tale of how she found out she was pregnant whether i was planned or not... whether i was made out of love or if i was an oopsie... there was no tale of 9 long months that she carried me and then the trip to the hospital or labor or delivery for that matter... none of that but there is a story of of a woman who god created just for me... to be my mother, to love me, to guide me, to teach me, to inturn raise me to be the kind of mother that i've always dreamed of being. the story begins when i was 7 years old she was very young and fell in love with a man who basically had a ready made family waiting for her. She was the missing link to our family she made my dad and i complete and for that i will be forever grateful. I dont have any memories from before the age of 7. i have one baby picture which now belongs to her. it was one that my grandmother saved for me. other than that as far as i know my life started at 7. i may not have stories about when i was a baby or the first word i said or the first steps i took but i do have a life filled with love and happiness filled with memories of parents who fell madly in love with each other and loved me with all that they had every second of every day. they made me the center of their universe and for that i will always be grateful. my mother sacrificed the best years of her life to put me first to give me what she never had to teach me lovingly and love me unconditionally.. you could never tell that she wasn't my biological mother if not for the physical attributes that show her age clearly. She is amazing in more ways than one. i may not have a hospital story of my mother the way most people do but the day i got pregnant the first place we went was to tell my parents, she was there for me 9 long months of my pregnancy, as well as every second of my labor and delivery. she was there when my daughter first opened her eyes, she changed her first diaper. SHE, MY MOTHER was there!! so in a way we did have that pregnancy experience, we had the hospital and we the birth....
i'd just like to say this.. God works in very mysterious ways... just because you dont get the answer to your prayers that YOU are expecting doesn't mean he hasn't ANSWERED. i think that's the moral of this story. She's my mother and i'm her daughter. a mother isn't just the person who brings you into this world no she's the one who quietly guides you through this world, who raises you with love and affection, who sheds tears and spends sleepless nights worrying about you no matter your age no matter where you are married or not adult or child. a mother can never be replaced.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS
THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE COMPLETE
And then all of a sudden
Oh, it seemed so strange to me
How we went from something's missing
To a family
Lookin' back all I can say
About all the things She did for me
Is I hope I'm at least half the MOM
That She didn't have to be
Monday, March 1, 2010
my 7 month old
Well as of February 22 i am the proud mommy of my very own seven month old!!!!
woooooooohoooooooooo
warning this rare species may come with bouts of separation anxiety, screaming for no reason at all, wanting everything you have at that moment, fits, and boredom after playing with any toy for more than 5 minutes. said species will also come with the inability to lay still while mommy and daddy change her diapers and any food is game especially what you happen to be eating or drinking at the moment. have fun and enjoy!!
you'll have to excuse my sarcasm lol!!! but my sweet bundle of joy has all of those new special quirks and then some lol but she's growing soooo fast!!! i cant believe we're less than six months away from her first birthday :) WOW!!!
andrea has moved on to three month appointments so i dont have any stats to report this month however i do know that she's sitting unsupported extremely well, she's desperately trying to crawl, we've become pretty liberal with her diet as she's now eating her babyfood and baby cookies along with what ever we may be eating at the moment. She's good with playing with her toys but gets bored very easily, she loves to play with other babies and is showing more and more how much she loves her family!!! Shes my big girl!!! and i'm so proud of how well shes doing!!
MOMMY LOVES YOU BABY ANDREA!!!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
love for her.
normally 8 pm rolls around and its bed time in the diaz household lol mostly straight across the board from andrea to mommy and daddy... we feed andrea her last bottle put her in her crib say her prayers give kisses and i love you's. Usually she falls asleep on her own.. tonight however was different.. she had her bottle but didn't want to fall asleep so after some coaxing i picked her up and sat down on the glider and rocked my sweet girl.
as i sat there observing her perfectly long eyelashes, watching as she sucked her little thumb, felt the thump of her heart beat, watched her breathe and smelled her hair. i literally felt her slip into her unconscious baby dream land. as i sat there taking all of lifes miracles in it hit me that we with god made this.. this beautiful tiny human. and we not only made this but we have a front row seat to her life. and it amazed me. i felt one with god. literally. i also realized that life is made up of moments some good some bad some miraculous. but all worth it. all molding us to be better that we were the previous day hour or minute. we dont realize it but these moments come from time.. which is the one thing we can never get back. it's always passing. Andrea is already half a year old. The time i've been able to have with her so far has passed me by in a blink of an eye. as i watched my sweet angel sleep in my arms tonight i thought to myself: WOW i'll never get this moment back... this is really a miraculous moment. the realization that God has both rewarded and blessed me with this person who is as connected to my soul as i am just left me speechless. this moment i will enjoy and love and years later i'll look back and remember just how blessed i was to even be able to feel this kind of love this kind of unity and this kind of amazement. This moment quieted all the rest. it made all the craziness, and unfairness in life worth it because she is whats good in the world not to mention she is what's perfect in my world. that is something that will always be. even when i'm tired or and need to be renewed.. when i need something to believe in... when i need to feel loved all i have to do is look at her.. see her smile and know that my purpose on this earth is her.
as i sat there observing her perfectly long eyelashes, watching as she sucked her little thumb, felt the thump of her heart beat, watched her breathe and smelled her hair. i literally felt her slip into her unconscious baby dream land. as i sat there taking all of lifes miracles in it hit me that we with god made this.. this beautiful tiny human. and we not only made this but we have a front row seat to her life. and it amazed me. i felt one with god. literally. i also realized that life is made up of moments some good some bad some miraculous. but all worth it. all molding us to be better that we were the previous day hour or minute. we dont realize it but these moments come from time.. which is the one thing we can never get back. it's always passing. Andrea is already half a year old. The time i've been able to have with her so far has passed me by in a blink of an eye. as i watched my sweet angel sleep in my arms tonight i thought to myself: WOW i'll never get this moment back... this is really a miraculous moment. the realization that God has both rewarded and blessed me with this person who is as connected to my soul as i am just left me speechless. this moment i will enjoy and love and years later i'll look back and remember just how blessed i was to even be able to feel this kind of love this kind of unity and this kind of amazement. This moment quieted all the rest. it made all the craziness, and unfairness in life worth it because she is whats good in the world not to mention she is what's perfect in my world. that is something that will always be. even when i'm tired or and need to be renewed.. when i need something to believe in... when i need to feel loved all i have to do is look at her.. see her smile and know that my purpose on this earth is her.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
What irritates me: warning.. offensive...
Ok so i dont consider myself to be a judgemental person.. i believe that i have certain standards for my own life and i hold myself and my family members to those standards .. however other people : to each their own..
What seems to irritate me however is the fact that my family and i hold up to those standards .. i met my husband we got married have jobs and now a daughter... we work hard during and post working hours ... we dont have help we care for our daughter and do everything we can to keep her healthy and happy .. my husband and i go above and beyond to make each other and our household work... we fill it with love for one another and our little girl. We dont lie cheat or steal.. we do things the honest way all the time... you may think that this post is all about me or my family but its not... i dont expect a special reward for doing things the right way or what i like to call the right way for our standards.. what this post is really about is the fact that so many around us do things the wrong way sometimes even the dishonest way and get what they want. They get the house by lying.. they get governmental assistance (of whatever kind) by choosing not to be married so they wont have to show a joint income. or they can stay home to raise their children something i only wish i could do to be there for every single beautiful moment. i understand many people run their households differently.. people make choices with their families and childrens best interest in mind... and let me apologize in advance for any hurt feelings because in all actuality i'm only venting because i'm angry ... angry with the system.. angry with society... angry that this has become the normal everyday functionality of many people. but i'm irritated about it... i'm irritated that because i'm married i can't qualify for florida kid care for my daughter instead we have to pay hundreds of dollars a month in insurance premiums all because of our income when in reality we're just making it. I'm irritated that we're saving to buy a house that we could potentially never afford because of the cost of living and since due to the fact that once again we're married and have that lovely little thing called a joint income we do not qualify for any sort of government assistance programs to try to buy that house... i'm irritated that we did things the right way and get penalized for it. That we have to struggle at times just trying to get ahead. but when is that time going to come that by not lying and not cheating that we get rewarded or recognized? i'm not totally sure maybe i'm waiting for something that will never be. but if thats the case how on earth are we supposed to teach our daughter that humility is the right way to go that doing things the honest way will always be the best way to live. i'm at a loss. plain and simple.
What seems to irritate me however is the fact that my family and i hold up to those standards .. i met my husband we got married have jobs and now a daughter... we work hard during and post working hours ... we dont have help we care for our daughter and do everything we can to keep her healthy and happy .. my husband and i go above and beyond to make each other and our household work... we fill it with love for one another and our little girl. We dont lie cheat or steal.. we do things the honest way all the time... you may think that this post is all about me or my family but its not... i dont expect a special reward for doing things the right way or what i like to call the right way for our standards.. what this post is really about is the fact that so many around us do things the wrong way sometimes even the dishonest way and get what they want. They get the house by lying.. they get governmental assistance (of whatever kind) by choosing not to be married so they wont have to show a joint income. or they can stay home to raise their children something i only wish i could do to be there for every single beautiful moment. i understand many people run their households differently.. people make choices with their families and childrens best interest in mind... and let me apologize in advance for any hurt feelings because in all actuality i'm only venting because i'm angry ... angry with the system.. angry with society... angry that this has become the normal everyday functionality of many people. but i'm irritated about it... i'm irritated that because i'm married i can't qualify for florida kid care for my daughter instead we have to pay hundreds of dollars a month in insurance premiums all because of our income when in reality we're just making it. I'm irritated that we're saving to buy a house that we could potentially never afford because of the cost of living and since due to the fact that once again we're married and have that lovely little thing called a joint income we do not qualify for any sort of government assistance programs to try to buy that house... i'm irritated that we did things the right way and get penalized for it. That we have to struggle at times just trying to get ahead. but when is that time going to come that by not lying and not cheating that we get rewarded or recognized? i'm not totally sure maybe i'm waiting for something that will never be. but if thats the case how on earth are we supposed to teach our daughter that humility is the right way to go that doing things the honest way will always be the best way to live. i'm at a loss. plain and simple.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Andrea 6 Mo Check up
Well my beautiful baby girl had her 6 month well visit at the dr. We actually saw a new dr that joined the practice who was extremely informative and thorough.. i loved every second of it!! The dr. said she's in perfect health and from now on she will only have well visits every three months instead of every 2!!
So far at 6 months she's weighing: 13.12
Length: 26 inches
Head Circumference of 16 in.
She's eating 2nd stage baby foods and we're in the process of introducing her to meats.. this week we're on chicken..which she will only eat when its mixed with fruit or veggies which is fine. She's trying desperately to crawl.. rolling has become part of a normal routine for her.. she's also saying mama which I LOVE!!! OF COURSE.
On the negative side of milestones and phases.. andrea is going through separation anxiety.. she will not let us put her down ... she fights her sleep til the bitter end screaming bloody murder..but on the bright side she's still sleeping through the night and i'm thankful for that! So far thats about it i'm enjoying every second of my little angel's development both good and bad its all worth it.. every single moment.
So far at 6 months she's weighing: 13.12
Length: 26 inches
Head Circumference of 16 in.
She's eating 2nd stage baby foods and we're in the process of introducing her to meats.. this week we're on chicken..which she will only eat when its mixed with fruit or veggies which is fine. She's trying desperately to crawl.. rolling has become part of a normal routine for her.. she's also saying mama which I LOVE!!! OF COURSE.
On the negative side of milestones and phases.. andrea is going through separation anxiety.. she will not let us put her down ... she fights her sleep til the bitter end screaming bloody murder..but on the bright side she's still sleeping through the night and i'm thankful for that! So far thats about it i'm enjoying every second of my little angel's development both good and bad its all worth it.. every single moment.
WOW ITS BEEN AWHILE!!
Well in my defense it has been a jam packed few weeks...
after my last post my birthday was on the 25th which ended up being a little rough.. Andrea had a stomach which she so generously passed on to both gustavo and i... so my birthday was spent at the dr with andrea and then pretty sick in bed all night long.. the following morning my parents came to pick up andrea because i was beginning to black out from all the throwing up... it was aweful!!! it laid us up four about two days.. so all in all it was a pretty rough bday week.. we ended up doing absolutely nothing for my birthday .. looking back on it i think i'd just like to pretend my bday never existed this year and revisit next year when i turn 27 lol!!! there were other circumstances making my birthday so unfun!! but i wont go into those lol!!
after that i was bombarded at work because the first week of the month we're absolutely slammed so that week was spent working half the week until 8 pm or later... but i'm back now and happy to be able to say so!!
after my last post my birthday was on the 25th which ended up being a little rough.. Andrea had a stomach which she so generously passed on to both gustavo and i... so my birthday was spent at the dr with andrea and then pretty sick in bed all night long.. the following morning my parents came to pick up andrea because i was beginning to black out from all the throwing up... it was aweful!!! it laid us up four about two days.. so all in all it was a pretty rough bday week.. we ended up doing absolutely nothing for my birthday .. looking back on it i think i'd just like to pretend my bday never existed this year and revisit next year when i turn 27 lol!!! there were other circumstances making my birthday so unfun!! but i wont go into those lol!!
after that i was bombarded at work because the first week of the month we're absolutely slammed so that week was spent working half the week until 8 pm or later... but i'm back now and happy to be able to say so!!
Friday, January 22, 2010
Happy 6 Month Birthday Andrea!
Wow ... the day is finally here... my sweet bundle of love is officially half a year old!
its amazing how the time flies... they always tell you things like enjoy your pregnancy because you'll miss it.. and of course i do.. then they tell you to enjoy your little ones because they grow so fast which now i understand as well!
i guess you walk through life hearing those things never fully understanding until you're there.. walking that path of life... :)
I feel so blessed today just as i do each and every other day that i get to see my beautiful daughter smile and light up when she sees me... The look on her face as she discovers her hands...when she reaches for me as i walk towards her.. as i see her bright eyes look at me as if to say i love you mommy!! i'm just so amazed by her by who she is becoming at just 6 short months of age.
you think about it and you bring this precious little person into the world and after knowing them for such a small amount of time you wake up one day to the reality that you've actually known them your whole life... even when you didn't know you and who you were and what you were about.. what you would accomplish who you would marry and what the future would hold all the while you knew this person... its like a part of you that has finally been able to catch up allowing you to coincide and share one heart while forgetting what life was like before. suddenly not knowing how you were ever able to breathe without this person.
Parenthood is amazing, marriage is amazing.. life is a blessing.
Happy 6 month birthday my sweet angel i fall more and more in love with you as each day passes. You have already taught me so much about myself and about life you are a blessing and sweet reward from the lord and for that i am thankful.
its amazing how the time flies... they always tell you things like enjoy your pregnancy because you'll miss it.. and of course i do.. then they tell you to enjoy your little ones because they grow so fast which now i understand as well!
i guess you walk through life hearing those things never fully understanding until you're there.. walking that path of life... :)
I feel so blessed today just as i do each and every other day that i get to see my beautiful daughter smile and light up when she sees me... The look on her face as she discovers her hands...when she reaches for me as i walk towards her.. as i see her bright eyes look at me as if to say i love you mommy!! i'm just so amazed by her by who she is becoming at just 6 short months of age.
you think about it and you bring this precious little person into the world and after knowing them for such a small amount of time you wake up one day to the reality that you've actually known them your whole life... even when you didn't know you and who you were and what you were about.. what you would accomplish who you would marry and what the future would hold all the while you knew this person... its like a part of you that has finally been able to catch up allowing you to coincide and share one heart while forgetting what life was like before. suddenly not knowing how you were ever able to breathe without this person.
Parenthood is amazing, marriage is amazing.. life is a blessing.
Happy 6 month birthday my sweet angel i fall more and more in love with you as each day passes. You have already taught me so much about myself and about life you are a blessing and sweet reward from the lord and for that i am thankful.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Long Weekend!!
Looks like i'm off of work this coming monday!! YAY!! Long weekend here i come...i'm looking at an hour and a half of work left then its headed home to be with my beautiful family!! Saturday we'll be getting some stuff done around the house hopefully!! probably stopping by carters to exchange an outfit that doesn't fit Andrea.. Making her baby food for the week and then dropping her off with my parents for a sleepover :)Sunday the plan is church then picking up andrea then going to see my oldest neice Natalie who is going to live with her Dad in Arizona!! I'm going to miss her very much and of course am sad to see her go but i know it's for her well being...the last time natalie and i lived states apart she was 3 years old and now she's 15 WOW my sweet baby is grown!!! But i know she has a good head on her shoulders and will always land on her feet.. She's surrounded by people that love her no matter how near or far! I love you baby girl!!
Monday: My plan is to kinda just hang out with Andrea and spend some quality time together :) maybe find what i'm going to wear for our Mommy and Andrea Photoshoot next weekend :) Which is my birthday present!! i'm really excited.
Update from mommyland:
I've noticed that the times i'm not with Andrea i'm suffering from some separation anxiety which i'm not a big fan of!! It's not good for me and it cant be good for her. She's getting to an age where i think it's important that she's with other family members besides mommy and daddy! As a mother i think it's also important to recognize when i need to take a step back and i believe that time has come!! Another thing i've noticed is that when Andrea is around other babies or children she kind of looks at them like "wow what is that weird creature mommy?" which i dont think is good either... When she hangs out with her good friend Gaby .. Gaby lights up and Andrea just sits and kind of stares.. Gaby of course has an older sister Olivia who plays with her on a constant basis but the point is that i was able to see the difference so i haven't decided what i'm going to do about that yet but something needs to get done regarding both issues!!
I want my baby to be happy and healthy in all areas of her beautiful little life and sometimes i think as parents we need to know when enough is enough no matter how hard it is for us. But the fact of the matter is that i have people around me who are more than willing to help so i need to take advantage of that for Andreas well being.. after all mommy's not always going to be there ... one day she's going to have to go to pre school and regular school she's going to need to interact with other children and people and i dont want it to be the type of situation where she doesn't know how to function causing her to go into meltdown mode because she's not accustomed to it.
On another note my birthday is coming.. i'll be 26 years old January 25 WOW!! 26 years have gone by and i'm married have a baby and have this whole crazy beautiful life!! I have a perfectly precious baby and and amazing husband!! I have parents that love me and baby me even to this day but push me all at the same time!! I'm very very blessed :)
Monday: My plan is to kinda just hang out with Andrea and spend some quality time together :) maybe find what i'm going to wear for our Mommy and Andrea Photoshoot next weekend :) Which is my birthday present!! i'm really excited.
Update from mommyland:
I've noticed that the times i'm not with Andrea i'm suffering from some separation anxiety which i'm not a big fan of!! It's not good for me and it cant be good for her. She's getting to an age where i think it's important that she's with other family members besides mommy and daddy! As a mother i think it's also important to recognize when i need to take a step back and i believe that time has come!! Another thing i've noticed is that when Andrea is around other babies or children she kind of looks at them like "wow what is that weird creature mommy?" which i dont think is good either... When she hangs out with her good friend Gaby .. Gaby lights up and Andrea just sits and kind of stares.. Gaby of course has an older sister Olivia who plays with her on a constant basis but the point is that i was able to see the difference so i haven't decided what i'm going to do about that yet but something needs to get done regarding both issues!!
I want my baby to be happy and healthy in all areas of her beautiful little life and sometimes i think as parents we need to know when enough is enough no matter how hard it is for us. But the fact of the matter is that i have people around me who are more than willing to help so i need to take advantage of that for Andreas well being.. after all mommy's not always going to be there ... one day she's going to have to go to pre school and regular school she's going to need to interact with other children and people and i dont want it to be the type of situation where she doesn't know how to function causing her to go into meltdown mode because she's not accustomed to it.
On another note my birthday is coming.. i'll be 26 years old January 25 WOW!! 26 years have gone by and i'm married have a baby and have this whole crazy beautiful life!! I have a perfectly precious baby and and amazing husband!! I have parents that love me and baby me even to this day but push me all at the same time!! I'm very very blessed :)
Monday, January 11, 2010
Cold Cold Go Away!!! strangers here to stay unfortunately
I'm not a fan of this weather ... not because i dont like the cold bc i do... even though im running out of clothes lol...but because it's so difficult to dress my sweet baby for the occasion lol... she's always warm to begin with so its like put five layers on her plus blankets just to go from the house the the car to the destination then take off the layers before she starts to sweat lol!! its a crazy game of keeping time with mother nature... oh well!!
next i want to complain about idiotic strangers that want to tell me how to mother my daughter expecting not to get snapped at... then immediately looking at me as if i'm some rude monster for expressing just how ungrateful i am for their advice.
i actually think i've been pretty patient until this point:
This weekend (which happened to be the coldest weekend we've experienced yet) gustavo and i had to take my wedding rings to downtown miami to be sized down. While we were waiting i had to change andrea in her stroller... after i changed her i decided to leave her snow gear on but unbuttoned since we weren't going outside of the building anytime soon... at the same time there was a woman ordering coffee that had the balls to tell me "you can't take her outside with her outfit unbuttoned... you should bundle her up" to which i replied "i would if i were going outside but since i'm not please keep your advice to yourself"
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
after that she turned around and was completely silent got her coffee and left!!!
of course my husband just sat there sipping his coffee after letting me handle yet another rude person on my own!!! he said that it took everything out of him not to laugh in this womans face... i didn't find it as amusing...
i'm just so tired of strangers approaching me telling me how to take care of my daughter who i happen to be extremely obsessive about to begin with... i've never in a million years tried to touch or grab another persons baby let alone give them advice on how i felt they should care for them... i guess it just urks me because you treat others how you would like to be treated... just so happens that I DO NOT APPRECIATE BEING TREATED THAT WAY!!
ok done complaining now :)
i just had to get that off of my chest!!
next i want to complain about idiotic strangers that want to tell me how to mother my daughter expecting not to get snapped at... then immediately looking at me as if i'm some rude monster for expressing just how ungrateful i am for their advice.
i actually think i've been pretty patient until this point:
This weekend (which happened to be the coldest weekend we've experienced yet) gustavo and i had to take my wedding rings to downtown miami to be sized down. While we were waiting i had to change andrea in her stroller... after i changed her i decided to leave her snow gear on but unbuttoned since we weren't going outside of the building anytime soon... at the same time there was a woman ordering coffee that had the balls to tell me "you can't take her outside with her outfit unbuttoned... you should bundle her up" to which i replied "i would if i were going outside but since i'm not please keep your advice to yourself"
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
after that she turned around and was completely silent got her coffee and left!!!
of course my husband just sat there sipping his coffee after letting me handle yet another rude person on my own!!! he said that it took everything out of him not to laugh in this womans face... i didn't find it as amusing...
i'm just so tired of strangers approaching me telling me how to take care of my daughter who i happen to be extremely obsessive about to begin with... i've never in a million years tried to touch or grab another persons baby let alone give them advice on how i felt they should care for them... i guess it just urks me because you treat others how you would like to be treated... just so happens that I DO NOT APPRECIATE BEING TREATED THAT WAY!!
ok done complaining now :)
i just had to get that off of my chest!!
Friday, January 8, 2010
stupid week almost over !!
Well i'm happy to report that today is friday in case anyone wasn't aware!!!
im looking forward to relaxing this weekend just me hubby and baby!!
This week has been so rough i've literally worked 7 days straight and today is my late day so i'll be here til 7 :( i'm absolutely exhausted. Gustavo wanted to go to orlando this weekend and my response to him was very simple... i'm exhausted i've had the week from hell.. i'm not going anywhere this weekend lol!!!! i know i probably should give in but i'm just drained.
anyway on another note... it's warmed up quite a bit here in florida and its sunny out .. just a beautiful day.. its a shame i'm going to spend it inside the office but those are the breaks... hopefully this weekend will be just as pretty.
i've started watching a handful of tutorials for photoshop elements and have been able to pick up some pretty cool tricks to use which makes me happy and makes using the software a little less scary which is GREAT!!! i can't wait to learn more :)
i was able to speak to my good friend Adriana yesterday... it was great to hear from her ... we always have so much in common.. its nice to hear a friendly voice when you've been caught up in madness for so long!!
ok back to work... hoping my day goes quick fast!!
im looking forward to relaxing this weekend just me hubby and baby!!
This week has been so rough i've literally worked 7 days straight and today is my late day so i'll be here til 7 :( i'm absolutely exhausted. Gustavo wanted to go to orlando this weekend and my response to him was very simple... i'm exhausted i've had the week from hell.. i'm not going anywhere this weekend lol!!!! i know i probably should give in but i'm just drained.
anyway on another note... it's warmed up quite a bit here in florida and its sunny out .. just a beautiful day.. its a shame i'm going to spend it inside the office but those are the breaks... hopefully this weekend will be just as pretty.
i've started watching a handful of tutorials for photoshop elements and have been able to pick up some pretty cool tricks to use which makes me happy and makes using the software a little less scary which is GREAT!!! i can't wait to learn more :)
i was able to speak to my good friend Adriana yesterday... it was great to hear from her ... we always have so much in common.. its nice to hear a friendly voice when you've been caught up in madness for so long!!
ok back to work... hoping my day goes quick fast!!
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