Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Asthma Asthma and more Asthma!!

Andrea was diagnosed with asthma about 3 months ago.. however she takes singulair each night to curb the episodes and for the past month it's worked like a charm... i really haven't had to nebulize her... until this weekend.. when she woke up around 3 am sunday morning with an asthma attack... then had another again around 9:30pm ... then 2:30am and of course around 8am which brings us to monday :( i took her to the pedi just to make sure i wasn't nebulizing her for asthma when that wasn't really the case.. he confirmed that they were just back to back flare ups.

Wow i'm completely exhausted... i had to of course explain to her teachers and her director at school what an asthma attack sounds like and what her symptoms are so they know whats going on... it just really makes me sad that my little girl has to struggle with this. Just the thought that she spends 8 hours a day at school without me there and could possibly have these attacks and if not paid close attention to will go untreated makes me lose sleep and want to throw up all at the same time... its really unnerving . i'm kind of at a loss for words right now. basically she just coughs and coughs and cant seem to get enough releif until nebulized.. she gets two different meds through the nebulizer then if she still cant pass the attack she gets one oral med. plus the singulair that is given every night. my house looks like the pill box :(

Friday, August 27, 2010

Under Stimulated

Andrea has been in day care since she was 8 months old. Now at 13 months old she is at a daycare with the "big kids" aka 1 year olds ;) her daycare is equipped with a webcam so i can monitor her from work. I've noticed that andrea probably spends a total of 1/4 of her day playing independently. If the kids are doing centers with the teacher you will see all of the children gathered playing and participating in the center activities. Then you will see andrea on the opposite side of the classroom playing with a toy by herself.

i think for the most part her teachers try to redirect her to the center activities they'll hold her or sit her on their lap but that doesn't always happen. Therefore shes spending a good chunk of her time by herself. When she started in this classroom i figured it was just due to the change or possibly because the size difference between andrea and her class mates... however now a month into it i haven't really seen a change.

.At Home.
Andrea is stuck to gustavo and i like glue at home... independent play doesn't exist which is so odd considering i know she does it at school. Even if i put on mickey or dora or any of the other popular childrens cartoons she has interest in the intro and end songs but thats about it. and this is not a new development. Shes been this way probably since 6 months of age. I tried baby genius and all of a sudden she sits there sucking her thumb dazed by this baby show. >>ok this is new<<

When she sees her cousin she plays with her without a problem.

But for about 7 months now i've been saying to myself.. ok it seems like she's never stimulated enough... and now after observing her at school i can't help but wonder if she really is under stimulated?
I try to get a hold of this by trying to work one on one with her but i haven't been able to find something that shes interested enough in. I try flash cards... she eats them... puzzles? she throws the pieces across the room... i've tried shape sorters and she takes the lid off ... none of these things seem to work.

Her tantrums have gotten worse over the past month and i'm wondering if that could be attributed to this possibility of under stimulation.

I'm just unsure of what's going on... i dont think anything is necessarily wrong i just dont want her slipping through the cracks either... ie: if she needs to be challenged i want to meet her needs.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Mom Thoughts

Since i've been old enough to understand i've wanted to do something amazing... i had an intense fear of failure... of amounting to nothing... of not being somebody... now that never really correlated to having money or being a millionaire ... i just wanted to be successful... i wanted to help people... i wanted others who came in contact with me to be able to say that i'm a good person and i've gone out of my way to help or touch them in one way or another...

When i had my daughter i felt that had been accomplished... i felt that i had reached that something amazing... i was a mommy... i had a part in creating life....there was another person who was part of this world because of me because of my role.. and i would continue to help her get to that point where she would become something amazing.

i wonder sometimes if the right place for me is working or if i should be home with her no matter what the sacrifice financially... i mean i send her to daycare everyday... and she learns, interacts with other children, and clearly thrives... they teach her how to be a little person...and each year that gets built upon and she grows more and more ... but i wonder about my role in all of that.. i mean when it comes down to it i spend an hour with her in the morning and 4 hours before bed in the evenings...5 days a week... then of course we're weekend warriors... where we live for family time on the weekends...but is she really thriving or would she benefit on a greater level if i were home with her interacting 24/7...

on the flip side:
i enjoy working... i enjoy adult interaction ... i enjoy being good at something other than being a wife and mommy... selfish?

is this alawys going to be how it is???
this ugly inner struggle between one or the other... which is best..what makes me a better or worse mother...

but what if i were able to stay home with her all day ? would i burn out... would i desperately miss my time at work being a productive member of the working population? What about that inner struggle?

Monday, August 23, 2010

andrea is 13 months old!!!

Andrea turned 13 months old yesterday.
I think she's doing pretty well for a little 13 month old.

Milestones:
walking (although she prefers to hold a hand wherever shes going she does it pretty consistently on her own as well), pointing, she says mom, daddy, shakes her head no when she doesn't want something, when we count she knows that three comes after 2 and says teeeee LOL ITS ADORABLE!!! knows what shhhh means and will tell you on command lol, she blows kisses and gives kisses on command, hugs, waves byebye, shes ok with playing independently but its really not her favorite thing to do lately she'd rather be stuck to my leg, she's also trying to feed herself with utensils, i dont know if tantrums are a milestone or not lol but she has definitely entered into that phase!! thats all that comes to mind these days i'm sure theres so much that i'm leaving out but those are the main things.

Andrea is on regular "people food" lol usually i give her whatever we eat i just try to make things a little healthier and kid friendly for her sake. she loves pb&j sammies which i introduced to her about two weeks ago.. those and mac and cheese are a big hit with her.

Since she turned 1 she has become crazy in love with her daddy. Which is kind of difficult for me at times because i miss the way she used to be obsessed with me.. but i love seeing the dynamic between her and gustavo... it reminds me of my relationship with my dad... and i love it... she also loves her grandfather and happens to be crazy over him as well.. its cute!!

co sleeping has really plateaued for us... its gotten sooooo bad... i cant even describe how miserable nights can be sometimes... basically fitting my ever so restless toddler in our queen sized bed plus mommy and daddy just isn't cute anymore lol... on a nightly basis i get kicked in the face, head butted, and pretty much pushed off the bed.. i dont even know what its like to snuggle with my husband anymore lol....trying to put her in the crib is extremely hard... she screams until she throws up... if i wait until she falls asleep and then put her in she either wakes up immediately or she wakes up 3 hours later!! its just really bad... even the simple task of getting her to sleep is difficult as she bops around the bed 50 times and screams when we lay her down to sleep.. meanwhile this is usually after 4 hours of play time, and a warm bath with lavendar soap, a warm bottle, NOTHING works... ugh its extremely frustrating.

other than that i would say we have a normal 13 month old who loves to play and watch mickey mouse lol... i love her so much and wouldn't change anything about her... it's all part of the process. happy 13 months little minnow mommy loves you <3

WOW!!

I've been out of my blog loop for so long so much has happened.. i dont even think i would be able to pick up where i left off if i wanted too... having said that i'll just sum up:

My last blog post was when Andrea turned 11 months old.... and i had no idea what the next two months or weeks for that matter would hold.

Andrea is now asmathic we're not 100% sure how that came about but have a strong feeling it had something to do with her OLD daycare... old as in shes no longer there!! turns out everytime it would rain they would flood on the inside of the school.. i checked online since all infractions are public record with child care providers and there was no evidence of anything fishy going on. nonetheless i pulled her out for a month... worked part time.. trucked her with me to work from 12-5 everyday for three weeks... the week of her birthday she stayed home with my blessed mother in law who was able to give me some peace to actually be able to get things done for her party, my work at the office, and myself.. being last on the list lol.

the week before andrea turned 1 she got extremely sick... i'm talking major throat infection and fever of 104.. i tried to get the temp under control by alternating motrin and tylenol... plus her antibiotic for the infection... but nothing worked.. i even tried lukewarm baths which suprise suprise weren't a big hit for her or me...finally her pedi told me that if i couldn't get her fever under control i had to bring her into the er... we spent a night there... they poked her from every crevase on her tiny body...catheter, blood, throat, butt, finger... it was bad finally they ended up keeping her for the night and administered antibiotic through injection... we spent the night... just me and my angel.. by the morning she was doing muuuuch better... and the fevers became less frequent... eventually she was better.

her first birthday...
wow it was awesome!!! hot but awesome... i had been buying things and planning since she was 7 months old and to my surprise i used all of my goodies... it was a ballerina party, equipped with ponies, tutu's, a craft table and an icee machine. i was up til 3am the night before getting everything ready ... woke up at 6:30 the next morning to be at the park setting up with my angel of a best friend bea who helped me soooo incredibly much.. she's the best. all in all it was hot being that we were in the middle of july and having a birthday party at a park but i was happy with the outcome.. andrea was totally wired and didn't sleep that night until about 12am lol... we also had LOTS of family here for her celebration which meant we were non stop the entire week plus weekend... my little baby's first birthday was just perfect and i wouldn't have done anything different... after all your first baby only turns 1 once!!! moving forward... next year we'll be celebrating her bday with mickey and friends lol!!!

1 year well visit with dr. martinez...
phewwww where to begin...
andrea received her varicella vaccination and will be going back for her mmr this thursday.
she has reached all of her milestones however unfortunately was off the growth chart for her weight... not good news... granted she had just been sick and hospitalized the week before however he used the phrase "failure to thrive" AHHHH my heart fell to the pit of my stomach i cant even begin to describe the disappointment i felt as a mother at that point in time... basically what he said was that she could just be petite like me however being that shes off the chart for weight and she had lost 4 ounces since her follow up the previous week we needed to change her diet so no more baby food... her diet now consists of eating every few hours like normal and eating lots of protein, pastas, rice, beans, lentils, meat, lean ground beef, any white fish like tilipia...all the good stuff... sooo my challenge began... all in all andrea is a great eater but its a matter of finding what she likes and to have a variety as she gets tired of eating the same things. so far so good...she seems like shes plumped up in the past three weeks but only the scale will tell whats going on. if she is still not weighing what she should we'll have to go see a pedi gi and start running tests. Fingers crossed.

Daycare...
Andrea started a new daycare here in coral springs the first week of august so far its been a very positive experience... no more sicky or asthma episodes... however she is on singulair to keep her asthma under control. i also have her on a multivitamin to boost her little immune system... Shes now in the one year old class and walking a lot... although not 100% yet... the daycare is equipped with a webcame where i can monitor her wherever she is off of my computer... its really great but sometimes i think it makes me miss her more during the day. but she's definitely thriving.