stupid week...

this has been such a stupid week lol!!!

i've been working everyday since saturday and i'm exhausted!!!
some of those days i didn't get home until 8:30-9pm... ughhhhhh i literally walked in the door just to kiss andrea goodnight! it was terrible.. i've missed her so much.

We've just been totally slammed at work..good news is that this stupid week is finally drawing to an end although tomorrow is my late night at work so i'll be here 11-7 double ugh

on a lighter note .. i finally was able to buy photoshop elements for my mac!! i was pretty excited until gustavo installed it and i sat down in front of a huge reality check that almost knocked me off of my chair which was I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO USE THIS PROGRAM!!! off the bat it looks pretty complex so i started freaking out lol... but i'm doing some research and watching some tutorials to at least get my feet wet and then hopefully it will get easier as i use it.

Andrea:
started bananas this week so for dinner she's been having sweet potato with bananas for desert!! She loves the bananas and hasn't had a reaction so far so thats great :)

also she's getting a lot better at sitting up without support and is even wanting to stand with support obviously lol... but she hardly wants to sit anymore... she stiffens her body and gets angry when we make her sit lol... she loves the crawl ball that santa brought her for christmas ... its really great it ligths up and has buttons and colors it sings and rolls around on the floor for andrea to follow... she seems to really enjoy it.

Mommy:
i went to see a nutritionist for my low energy level that has progressively gotten worse since andrea was born... she gave me the name of a natural thyroid supplement to take which should level me out. I started taking it today so lets see how i feel over the next week or so.

Other than that i'm pretty happy... My husband is wonderful and continues to amaze me with each passing day. and my daughter is beautiful and brings so much joy to my life...i'm so in love with my family i feel like i could burst!!! Love is beautiful..

Christmas

ristmas Eve:
Christmas eve is my favorite memory... every year on christmas my family (which has now been taken over by my parents) roasts a pig and we have a party for everyone to get together and enjoy themselves. As a little girl i used to get up at 5am to go down to the slaughter house with my parents and grandparents to choose the pig.... i know it sounds pretty gruesome but its just part of the tradition!!! after the slaughter house we would bring the pig back to my grandparents house where it would be cleaned and cooked!! it was an all day affair that ended with a party...i remember the music and food and especially the family... those christmas eves each and every one of them was special to me and is my favorite day of the year!!!!

This year we all got dressed up and went to my parents for the annual pig roast and had a great time!! it was such a blessing to be around so much family!! it was also special obviously bc it was andrea's first christmas eve!! we left my parents house around 9 pm bc gustavo wasn't feeling too well and andrea was absolutely pooped from all the festivities... so we came home finished wrapping presents and waited for santa to come ;)

Christmas Day
Mommy Daddy and Andrea started our first christmas as a family of three around 8am... we fed the baby of course and then started opening all the wonderful presents santa brought us!! it was great andrea actually opened most of them and by the time everything was opened she went down for a nap because she was exhausted!!! we then went to my parents house to open some more presents with them as well as my sister brother in law and their kids.

The house looked like a disaster zone by the time all was said and done... but it was totally worth it and was a great first christmas spent with family that we are so extremely blessed to have!!!

This christmas Gustavo and I were blessed in another extra special way... we were able to celebrate with our little miracle... our sweet baby that God put together piece by piece like a perfect puzzle...Andrea was the most amazing part of christmas for me... looking at her in amazement as she opened her presents and smiled at mommy and daddy shes so beautiful and perfect and the most wonderful obsession i'll ever have.

Happy Five Months Baby Andrea!

Happy five months old baby Andrea!!!! Mommy loves you very much :)
Today my sweet baby turned 5 months old!!! she's getting soooo big!! i can't believe how fast she's growing and the time is flying!!.. in a few days we will be celebrating our first christmas as a family of three i cannot believe how incredibly blessed we are!!! We truly have so much to be thankful for...

Currently Andrea is sitting up without support (once she gets her balance) for a few seconds at a time!!! she's also teething..she has found her feet which happen to find her mouth just about all day long... has eaten sweet potatoes, green beans, carrots, and will be starting squash today... she's right on schedule with her solids..also she verbalizes "ummmm" when she's eating...its the cutest thing!!!

Happy 5 months baby MOMMY LOVES YOU!!

Update From MommyLand

Andrea will be five months old next week!! which is so exciting.. but whats even better is how active she's become in the last few weeks!!!

She's currently: blowing raspberries non stop!! WHICH IS ADORABLE!!!!
getting better at rolling over... verbalizing when we feed her by saying ummmmmm...and the best of all milestones so far last night she sat by herself with zero support around her !!!! i'm so proud of how far my sweet baby has come!!!! being a mommy is by far the most amazing thing i've EVER been blessed enough to experience!!!!

Migraine Pain

Wow its pretty bad these days... i've had migraines consistently since last tuesday... i've never suffered from migraines before so its a little overwhelming... Gustavo wants me to go to the dr.which i'm not a fan of lol but i'm thinking its getting to that point... especially since this is so uncommon for me. we'll see what happens...

Pensive!!

There are many things i've accomplished in my life that have made me proud...i like to think i've taken the road less traveled in many instances... not that i'm trying to make myself this high and mighty person but i guess i'm just happy with the person i've become... this week however i took a loooong hard look at my life and i had to ask how i let things get this far... how in the world did i wake up one day and ask myself what in the heck is wrong with you!!! you have nothing to show for where you are (besides of course a beautiful family) i should have a career... a degree... i should be that person that my neice has looked up to her whole 15 years of existence... i should be that person that my daughter will one day want to be or emmulate just as i have looked at my own mother and father... WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!!!! i know this all seems pretty petty and immature of me but the fact of the matter is that i'm 25 years old but am lacking something that has given many in my generation purpose... that damn little piece of paper that says who i am...that says i'm educated... that says i was able to begin something and reach a goal...i was able to help people.. i was able to do something rewarding... something big... something that my daughter will one day be able to look back and say THIS is my mom!!

i know it all sounds a little crazy but i guess this is me just venting...but when i'm surrounded by people who have degrees and are clearly educated i feel unaccomplished, unproductive, and just plain mediocre... i mean why didn't i do something amazing with my life like become a doctor or a lawyer why didn't i have the discipline to do something that other people could look at and say HEY now she's special... she's one of a kind... why haven't i touched lives and helped others in times of dispair... WHY WHY WHY!!! Gustavo says i'm having a crisis... and maybe i am... after all its totally possible.. but the fact of the matter still remains... why aren't i the kind of daughter my parents can brag about when they go out ...why did i settle for being mediocre..laziness? lack of interest? lack of drive? discipline? whatever the reason it doesn't take away from the fact that something's missing....

I love being a mommy and a wife.. but i want more than that.. i want my family to look towards me with pride....knowing that i did something with my life.. i didn't settle no matter the reason...i dont want to be that woman that is nothing more than a wife and a mommy... i want to be able to go out and not feel like i'm the tiniest person in the room because everyone around me is accomplished. Now the question is will these desires turn into something i can be proud of in the end. Does it mean that much to me? Will i make it happen? Will i make my family proud? or will i falter yet again....

Christmas!!

Well my favorite time of year is here again!! i think back to this time last year and remember how excited we were for this year to come around since i had recently found out i was pregnant with andrea!!! We were looking forward to this christmas bc we knew we'd be celebrating our first christmas as a family of 3 :)

This past weekend we got our christmas tree and decorated it!! we started a family tradition which was Gustavo's family tradition with his parents!! we bought a six pack of glass bottled coke and i baked cookies while we decorated :) it was so nice... Andrea fell asleep about three ornaments in lol but i think we can forgive her for that :) the tree is perfect and is decorated pink and silver of course since our theme for the year is pink :) it was such a nice time..i thank God for allowing us to experience so many wonderful firsts with our little girl and pray that we will continue to experience such beauty as our family continues to grow!!!