could it be the end???

Good Morning All!!!

as i sit and eat my breakfast consisting of pound cake and hot chocolate i'm contemplating what could possibly transpire today at my dr. appt!!! i've been having contractions since thursday... a quick trip to labor and delivery and i was home within a few hours if that... nurse and i weren't really seeing eye to eye.. i got violated by her man hands twice to no avail... it was what it was... no dilation NONE!!!! 39 weeks pregnant and my little angel is stubborn as hell!!! anyway i'm due at my dr. at 8:30 this morning... hopefully she'll be the bearer of some much needed good news... the contractions have definately been stronger all night and morning so im hoping it did something ... anything... we'll see... all thats left to do at this point is pray... really ... its not even a matter of me being uncomfortable anymore... i could really care less... i've gotten used to feeling this way... i just want my little girl here and in my arms... i spent some much needed quality time with my neice on saturday night along with the hubby and my mommy... it was so nice... she was giving me the most wonderful hugs... much needed might i add... shes so beautiful and innocent and just herself.. i love her to pieces and it made me realize what i've always known when it comes to the both of my precious neices... if i love them THIS MUCH.... i cant imagine feeling the kind of love a mother feels.. they are so incredibly special to me... it definately left me anxious to begin my journey into parenthood with my amazing husband by my side always...

side note.... billy joel's song goodnight my angel is amazing!!!!

every parent should listen to it...

well im off to my docs appointment... i'll keep you posted... all thats left to do is PRAY... JUST KEEP PRAYING... GOD'S TIMING IS PERFECT ALWAYS!!!!

Thursday...

Well yesterday was a very boooooring day for me... we switched our cable and internet service provider from att back to comcast... that was pretty short lived... anyway so i was without cable/internet alll dayyyy long... normally i'd be fine.. but being home all day didn't help my cause very much... anyway we're back up and running today..yayyyy!!!

i think gustavo and i were able to reach a good happy medium with Andrea's child care which is good..i think we've been able to reach a decision we're both happy with... yay!!

oh yes and btw in case you're wondering i'm stilllllll pregnant... yup thats me prego prego prego!! but i have been having some contractions since last night.. they seem to be getting stronger although not necessarily closer together time wise... but we'll see... my mom has her sights set on Andrea being born sat/sunish....and im getting the feeling it will be this week sometime.. so we'll just have to sit tight and see...today i turned 39 weeks which is pretty darn good since pregnancy is based on a 40 week period... really any day now... any second now really and i would appreciate it lol!!! i guess thats about it for now!!

Tuesday...

Well im still very much pregnant!!!! man i feel like i've been pregnant for the past 3 years lol!! its so crazy... already my husband and i can't remember life before Andrea and she hasn't even been born yet... we love her so incredibly much already i know its only going to intensify when she finally makes her debut into this crazy beautiful world!!

today i went to joanne's fabric and crafts... got some ideas for Andrea's announcements.. i'd really like to get my creative juices flowing and make something really beautiful for our little angel!! anyway i also got to looking at different kinds of textured fabrics for her newborn photoshoot ... i cant wait for that!!

i went to the post office and finally got our baby shower thank you cards sent out!! its been exactly one month and one day since our shower.. not to bad.. i was trying to get them out in a timely manner!!! so i'd say a month is alright..

came home made some mac and cheese for lunch.. and i'm defrosting some ground beef for baked ziti for dinner tonight... i know.. lots of pasta lol!!! oh well its so easy especially when you're so not in the mood to cook.. besides if i make the ziti tonight we can have it for dinner tommorow too!! lol gotta think ahead!!

anyway.. now i'm just waiting for 3:30 to come around when the hubby gets off of work!! definately the highlight of my days :)

hope everyone is having a great one!!!

God Bless!!

uneventful dr appt!!!

well went to the dr today... and basically i've made zero progress... i cant believe i'll be 39 weeks on thursday and still no andrea!!! life is just not fair lol... anyway i did ask the doc about induction and she basically told me that she wouldn't recommend it yet... obviously andrea is not ready to make her debut yet and if i try to force it i will become high risk for a c section which i really dont want at this point!! sooo that leaves us with ... if by my next appointment in one week nothing has happened she'll begin to think about induction... ahhh the life of a pregnant woman... sooo much waiting... in all honesty only God knows when he'll be placing his angel in our arms... until then my faith is completely in his hands!! after all... our creator makes no mistakes in his perfect design...

while my cake is baking...

no pun intended... lol not my daughter but a real cake that i was craving i thought i'd blog about nothing really in general lol!!! this weekend has been pretty uneventful!! basically we stayed inside the whole weekend.. its rough being 9 months pregnant when living in south florida in july... yeah definately not fun.. we did however, discover a cute little park in pines today .. we were there for about 15 minutes and then had to leave because gustavo got severely bitten up by some sort of insects lol!!! poor baby... but it was still nice to scope a photography spot out for future... i've decided that photographing landscape really doesn't do much for me or my creative juices so in a way thats food for thought... i get so excited when i look at wedding photos or newborn portraits...i mean i could literally sit and just look at them all day long... im amazed at the amount of talent that's out there... anyway on another note.. i'm still pregnant.. sometimes i feel as though she's never going to get here.. even though i know when the time is right she will... but the waiting is enough to make a person go completely crazy!! i dont think i've ever been so excited to go to my ob as i am for tommorrow's visit... im definately going to broach the subject of induction.. just to pick her brain and see what she thinks!! we shall see... anyway i believe my cake is done so i'm headed to the kitchen .... yummmmmmmm

Back from lunch

well today is officially day five of my maternity leave.. my first week is coming to an end and still no andrea in sight lol!!! man maternity leave can be quite lonely when you dont have a baby to take care of... on another note i just got back from a panera lunch with the hubby!!! thank the lord for him lol!!! and for his schedule of 7-3:30pm... just an hour and a half left and he'll be home..i cant wait...its so quiet here ... last night we went walking and this morning i did some walking by myself.. had contractions well through the night and this morning but they seem to have subsided. i tell you this little one is stubborn like her daddy!!! she doesn't seem to want to make her debut anytime soon... one more weekend and monday i have a doc appt... we'll see what happens by then!! fingers crossed!!! i slept a little better last night.. i was only up once for about 30 minutes so that wasn't so bad.. definately a step up from every other night this week... well its off to do some photography research.. lets see what i find/learn today...

its been awhile...

wow!!! so its definately been awhile since i've blogged... i've decided its time to pick it up again.. i've started my maternity leave which has left me what tons of time on my hands to work on things i've let kind of lag behind... i'm getting into photography... but this time i'm convinced to spend the necessary time on it... Gustavo bought me a new computer to work on my edits and do what i need to... and i have the camera already so now its just a matter of dedicating the time to something that i've always been passionate about but to scared to dive into!!! He's really such an amazing husband and i'm so blessed God placed him in my life... he's so supportive of every and anything i want to do..like i said i'm blessed...

on another note my due date is approaching.. although not as quickly as i'd like it to.. i'm 38 weeks pregnant and i have a doctors appointment on monday where i plan to talk to the doc about possible induction.... i'm nervous because i'm not quite sure what her reaction will be but at the same time i'm so incredibly uncomfortable... i dont know how much more of this i can take... as it is i dont sleep...im in pain...im swelling.. oh yes and i'm looking like a zombie from any number of scarey movies.. take your pick!!! so monday is the day we'll find out if she's going to make me go until im overdue or if i'll get a lucky break lol!!

wish me luck!!!

til next time...

liz